said-goodbye

2008-03-19T00:40:00.000-07:00

I can't really figure out what to do on the net these few days. Tired of friendstering -.-
And trying very hard to understand whats the purpose of msn-ing. Everything seemed boring to me really -.- Sadly ....
But even with all these complains, I still can't control myself not to on this stupid thing! -.-
Okay, but seriously, boring nowadays. ZZZZZZZZ!

Anw, about the day.
Ana(meaning I meet her again-.-) asked me to acc her down to KK Hospital. Lol, not for checkup definitely. Went there for her job thing. So we took this stupid 66 all the way there. And after an 1h+ ride then we reached that place. Very long okay -.- Then after awhile, we left for Bugis. Visited Diva and guess what? We bought a 'bestfriend' necklace. Lol. Sounds so 'sec-1-and-2' luh but well, I think its something meaningful to me. Cause I believe she really is my best friend and I know that necklace means more than just the young girls' trend (:

Wanna have a look?

TADAAAAAAAANG~

The best is with Ana and the friend is with me :D Weeees. Lol
Anw back to the whole thing.
So after paying for the stuff, we lunched at MOS Burger. Then chatted and laughed alot when we exchanged about our dreams. Lol. All the weird dreams and the sad dreams and the happy dreams too. Haha, believe me, I woke up laughing from my dream that one night. -.-
Left around 5.40++ and went for class at Tamp. Okay, I don't wish to talk about class cause it sucks alot today. Having someone weird -.- I realised it was tiring.
Went home around 10. Reached home at around 11.
And now, I'm in front of this thing again -.-

(random): I missed my long hair tail. My short hair pom alot and I don't like it -.-

After reading a few blogs, I'm beginning to feel abit emotional -.-

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Well, maybe life is just like that.
Things just come and go as they like. Without you even realising it.
Sometimes, abit too late to even regret. Thats life.
Before I start to realise more things getting further and further away from me, I just wish to say:
I only ask for everyone that I love,
to be happy and be happy and be happy.

I feel like crying seriously ):

2008-03-17T17:17:00.000-07:00

Though today haven't really came to an end, but I think its enough for me to fill up this post.

Just now, I went to Ana's house first thn the both of us went to Bedok Inter to get my things done. Because of many small things that happened and while in the process of analyzing them, I was telling Ana that I'm moodless. So I was like very sianed all the way to Inter. Without really saying too much of those usual stupid comments. Ana say she not used to it. Guess what, I think I can't stay moodless for a day. Then many things happened and we were laughing and laughing.
First, the weather is a killer. Super duper irritating hot -.- Don't go out today, you will regret!
Okay, so we were at the bank, and Q-ing up at the 'May I Help You' counter. Lol. Then this student trainee approved me and ask me sth like, what he can help me. Then I was like giving him the 'huh' face. Then I say, 'Oh I came for the poly thing'. So I thought he can help me or tell me anything useful. But instead, he just say 'Oh you want to get the chop eh. Oh okay.' And walked away -.- So I was left with the 'huh' still written on my face. He just came randomly and left randomly like that. -.- In front of us, theres two girls also Q-ing up for help, TP students as well. They were blurred too, by the student trainee. Lol. Thn SOON, they realised that we are TP students as well. Like after so long I took out my forms -.- Okay, so this Mass Comm girl was like asking us what course we are in and blah. Then suddenly, she goes 'Oh thats cool thats cool!' and jumping alittle. Haha, abit weird but friendly. Future school mates. Hehe.
After that, worse, theres this China woman behind us. She asked us where she can get her money. We don't know. So she needed help to. But theres a lady in front taking along time for the her things to be explained. Apparently, the China woman got irritated and keep on nagging like, 'Why so long', 'Why she keep talking to the lady' and blah blah blah blah. Then she suddenly 'Oi, hello!' -.- I really don't know how to react can! Lol.
And as we walked around Inter, we see many more funny things! Find the day so interesting ;D Really. Lol. Its what we called, a dramatic day of my life. (Lol)
Okay, despite the irritating weather, I still think its a great day. Haha.

Ana went off to meet her friend while I WALKED home. Seee, lucky I didn't get heat stroke. Lol!

Suddenly I got so many things I wish to do with my com.
I wanna watch dramas,
I wanna download alot alot of new songs,
I wanna play TheSims. (hehe)
Oh yah, install my Photoshop too. Lol, but the CD is not with me -.-

Ahhh, I shall stop here and continue playing my Sims ;D
Bye!

2008-03-17T11:03:00.000-07:00

After a week, Bro went back to school and finally, my peaceful morning! :D

Well, Saturday was a long day. Had 2 tuition slots. Tiring. First class was a P4 Indian guy, a P6 guy and a Sec1 NT guy. Don't know what to say, but just you know ... Tried my best. The rest was alright, but the Sec1 NT one was a bit er, lazy -.- And he is extremely weak in his English. Oh well, I think they made a even worse choice to have chosen me to tutor him English. But Steven asked me to give him P4-P6 work will do. And yah, I gave him spelling as well. So pathetic ):

Thn after the first class, which ended at 12.30. I really got nth to do. So I decided that I should visit the bank for some help with the poly form thing. But guess what, the bank was closed! And I freaking went all the way there just for it you know! Jeez. Wasted my time and bus fare -.-! Thn I called Bong to ask him sth. He said he was coming down to Inter afterwards. So I waited for him at a stupid bus stop and wasted my time away. Oh yah, I don't want to miss out the funny part. Some bird flew into his house early in the morning. Lol. And he said he is very scared! Hahah. He don't dare to keep his clothes and all cause the bird is somewhere near there! Lol. -.-
Anw, so we went to BK cause he can't find the chicken rice stall and when we finally found it, the coffeeshop was under renovation -.- How swayy~ Lol. So lunched at BK and left at 3.30 for my class. I bloody took 69 and I realised that I shouldn't have take that bus -.- So I alight at somewhere near and walked over -.- I got 3 siblings and a Malay guy. The 3 siblings were soooooo cute. I don't know how to express how cute they were. The P2 one was sooooooooooooo cute can! I kept looking at him cause he is too cute. As in, he looks cute and he talks and behave cutely. Omg. Thn the sister which was Sec1 was alright. Nice and sweet. Thn the second one was a fat boy and is so cute too! He laughs cutely and he looked cute too. The 3 of them tgt formed a super duper cute picture. I'm not exaggerating k! Really cute ;D The Sec2 Malay guy looked shuai (; He was ill on that day. Lol. He looked more matured then any other Sec2 guys. Then the 2 small boys were trying their best to make him laugh. LOL. When finally the P2 one could no longer stand it, he asked the Malay guy. 'Why you don't laugh one?' HAHAHA! Then the Malay guy was like' I don't know'. LOL. I was diao-ed by the guy's reply. Everyone burst out laughing. Noisy! Haha, but fun ;D
After lesson, Dad picked me up for dinner and yes, finally, the long day was gone! Had dinner at Clementi and homed after that.

Sunday was a durian day.
Durian Feast! ;D
All kinds of durian in front of me. Different feelings, different texture, different taste.
In other word, the different 'breed' of durians! Haha.
Awesome! DURIAN DURIAN DURIAN ;D

Okay, I'm leaving home now to meet Ana and heading for the bank again. Be back after noon.
I made really weird dreams these few nights. LOL -.-
Goodbye!

2008-03-15T21:46:00.000-07:00

I'm not expecting anything anymore.
I just want you to be happy, period!

2008-03-14T21:56:00.000-07:00

Hmm, its been awhile since I'm here. Like finally the new CPU is here -.- Life without com just sucks so much I tell you. But finally, I've said goodbye to those sucky days. REJOICEEEE!

-.-

Anw, I have got alot of things to blog over the days. But then I guess nothing is coming out. After all the installing and attempts to familiarize myself with new things -.- So I shall just list down some random stuff happening around these few days. Whatever I can recall.

Well, so its been almost a week since I blogged or rather, used the com. I'm sorry for my 'tonight or tmr' never comes. Cause due to some reason, the old CPU isn't working. So we have to make a new one. Its cool. Its black in color. Woot~ :D

Whatever -.-

SOOO. Here's what happened:
I've been crashing Ana's place for many afternoons and I never understood how we can meet up with each other everyday. Haha. Somehow in a day, I will still turn up at her house or go out with her. Oh well, expect what? We got another 3 more years ahead of us -.- Good luck eh Ana, I hope we don't end up getting too sick and tired of each other's face and eventually became enemies. Lol. And I must also make clear certain things, we are perfectly normal. Lol. Pure close friends. Not lesbians -.- Well, at least I know I'm normal. Ana. I don't know? :X HAHAH! Kidding luh. We are normal yea!
Haha, so I think I don't need to explain anymore, everyday with Ana, Ana and more Ana(s). -.-
(Okay, wait while I find out what we did TGT -.-)

Monday: Sorting out our enrolment things. I think? I can't really recalled actually-.-
Tuesday: We went around Bedok Inter in search for a shop to have our photos taken. It was pouring, I rmbed. Met XiangYu after that while Ana went off to meet Rach and YanRong for their BBQ. Still pouring. Pauses in between. Not long.
Wednesday: Thought that maybe we can have a break from each other. But in the end, I still ended up at her place cause I needed her printer to print the medical form. Still pouring -.-
Thursday: Met Ana again for the checkup at T3. T3 is nice/beautiful/pretty. It looked more like a shopping mall to me -.- Signed up and everything and we were required to gave our urine sample. God awkward alright. Very -.- After that lunched at Popeyes' and we saw Rashidah coming to work. So we camped for her to come out of the toilet. Sounds very sick. Haha. Watched 'Water Horse' tgt with Rach. Quite cute. But I still think its body is ABIT disgusting. Lol. Omg slimy :S And the actors got problem pronouncing english. Turned out funny. Haha.
Friday: Today! Still meet up again -.- For movie. This time with Anita. So theres four of us. Rach, Ana, Anita and me. Watched 'Step Up 2'. Really really nice show!!! So nice. The Q-mo guy is cute ;D All should catch it. In any case you haven't, go now! Don't hesitate. Really nice. Even though some said that 1 was nicer, I still think that I liked 2 more. :D
Good news, lesser rain today!

So from the above information, everyone can see I'm meeting Ana everyday -.-
AND worse is, I think we are meeting again tmr! :S
OH WELL~
PLEASE CONTINUE BELIEVING THAT WE ARE NORMAL.
THANKS :D

Anw, tutoring started again today. With new students and new place. First day at the new place. Kinda dislike the idea of starting everything new again after started getting used to the other side. But for the sake of money, I think I've no other better choice -.- They told me that 477 is closing down and have to transfer me to the residential side. In the end, I found out that that wasn't really the case. So whats all these closing down thing for? *shrugs*
But well, I hope everything goes on well and I shall start getting myself adapted to the new place. Meanwhile, hoping that they will ask me to go back to 477 to teach again. Whatever~ Life is not fair. Never.
So this morning, the weather was making me very frustrated and emo too. I can't hold back my tears which eventually fell and makes me feel so much better. When teaching, I kept looking at the clock and hoping that 1 faster come. -.-

Time will heal everything by itself. Eventually. Yes it will.
Long way to go, JinMay! Gotta hang on!
Bottom line is:
Sometimes, we just don't need to expect too much from people and life. Its never the way you want it. And its time to start believing in no one but myself.

After such a long post, finally an end! Hah, goodnight people!
I miss the computer. And it feels good that everything is back again.
(:

2008-03-08T11:35:00.000-08:00

I'm rushing for time! No time no time. Shall blog while the com is still working.
Called the uncle alr and he is coming later to fix this stupid com of mine. Sigh, has been acting strangely these few days -.- I mean, the bloody com. I wanna play Sims2 as well. But the Cd Rom is not working! For god's sake -.- Later, the uncle shall fix it for me! :S

Okay, I think I update again either tonight or tmr. When everything is gonna be alright. Yeaaaaa! Go prepare now ;D
Goodbye, see ya!

2008-03-06T23:50:00.000-08:00

Lunch: Rice with the charsiew and fishcake. (yums)
Tutoring: Weird students, ytd was much better I think.
Feeling now: Hungry, and alittle tired.
Wanna thanks: Anabel(for the job thing).
Dinner: A cup of milo?
Thinking now: Nice weather, emo stuffs.
Msning with: ShuZhen and Ana

(LOL)

This is a weird post I know. Weird shall remain weird.
Goodnight! Any drama intro(s)? :S

I wish that someone can love me too.

2008-03-06T15:15:00.001-08:00

Click click!

2008-03-06T15:03:00.000-08:00

Thursday afternoon. But doesn't feels like it is now. With the weather and everything. How good it will be to be lying in bed rather than sitting here -.- Anw, woke up pretty late this morning. Around 11. I know you won't think its late but for me, it is -.- Cause I usually wake up at 8+, 9? But now even though its 1.30 alr, but it still feels so early. School is finishing in like about what? 10mins time? Scenerios different uh. Haha. I jut woke up not long, my mind keeps on reminding -.-

Anw, Cbel called me just now cause she is feeling guilty(I guess so) for not ringing me back last night. And also partially cause she is feeling siannnnnnnnn. So we talked rubbish again but with yawns and short pauses in between. Nothing much to talk in the morning. Especially not this morning which we should be doing more sleeping than talking. But well... we just enjoy each other's company :D Since we were both so BORED and SIAN. Hahaha.

Okay, ytd's tutoring went on quite well. As least I managed to teach them a few things and AT LEAST they understood. Yes, alittle accomplishment (: The other tutor there was nice too. Her name called MeiJuan. She speaks more english while I speak more chinese -.- So it was like I ask her question in chinese and she replied me back in English. Haha, quite funny. But we hit it off quite well though. Hopefully everything goes on this smoothly for all the upcoming tutoring. And I will jolly sure do my parts well. Yeah :D
But, I still hope school starts as soon as possible! I'm really so zzzzzzzzz bored at home. And where has the stupid enrolment package gone too -.-? I'm so looking forward to it luh please. Hehe, must be wondering why right? Well, cause I wanna see if I need a laptop for my course and if need, we can chiong down to the IT fair at Suntec. Haha. The word 'chiong' sounds aunty. Haha whatever. The main thing is, I hope I need a laptop, period. Ugh.

Anw, I'm bored. So I have decided to put up some photos. So I looked around and found this very cute one>
(Haha, so cute right? :D) ^
Taken at China's flower market. Its one bouquet. They even have a market for flowers! Hah. And that are all flowers okay. All so beautiful. They have so many flowers over there that its nothing to give a bouquet of flowers during valentines' -.-
7 hour ride for this okay -.- Of course its beautiful la!

Haha. I know these 3 photos got no links. Just random ma. To kill time. Haha. I have decided to get a proper camera phone so that I can put upload more pictures onto my blog. Moneyyyy! o.O

Well, I shall end here now then. ):
Goodbyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Lovely weather, lovely afternoon. I shall go prepare myself now. :D

2008-03-05T13:49:00.000-08:00

"Coincidence is god's way of remaining anonymous"

The whole morning, I've been doing all the edits for my blog. Damn all the backgrounds, so cute lo! Oh my god. I got a really hard time deciding which one to put and I started saving lots of them up! Hahaha. And now, theres song on my blog too. Hope it can help to make the blog, not so boring uh. Nice cantonese song you know. Though I'm not gonna understand what they are singing -.- Anw, 3 cheers for the new blogskins and edits! (:

Oh haven't update, so now I gotten the tutor job and I'm starting today. After like so long, finally I managed to have A job -.- I'm so pathetic hor! But I'm greedy. I also hope that everything goes on smoothly at my Aunt's side. Then I will be having two jobs. HAHAHAH, I see money rolling in! o.O
BUT! .......
I'm worried. So nervous. My hands are turning cold. NOW! And I've got another ..... 4 more hours to go. How to survive?! :S
Hmmmmmmm. Maybe I should start believing in myself from now onwards! Yes JinMay, you can do it! HOHOHO. :S

Thanks XiangYu who has volunteered to accompany me there! Haha.
Hehe, not alone :3
Anw, hope everything goes on well and I will then like the job and maybe I shall consider becoming a teacher next time.*tinktink*

Ugh whatever. Before suming things up for the afternoon, I wanna say a few words.(lol)
Memoirs of a geisha is a nice book! Highly recommended. Its the first book I cried reading okay. Though I'm still half way through. For someone like me who never understand how anyone can cry reading a book. FINALLY! I know how it feels. ):
Anw, I need to start reading more!! IN ORDER TO IMPROVE MY REALLY HORRIBLE ENGLISHHHHHHHH. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. C6 you knowwwwwww! :S
Too shy to even mention -.-
Sighs.

"3 words to sum up everything about life, IT GOES ON"

2008-03-05T03:18:00.000-08:00

Finally I changed my blogskin. Though now color combi is only black and white but I like it more than the previous one. Haha. At least for the time being yea. And still, Verdana is the best! :D

Anyway......

Today(ytd) seems to be livelier(more lively?) than any other rotting days. Cause I went out for movie!(The Leap Years). With Ana, Rach, and two humans popped out from nowhere, Cbel and Xueqian. Haha. It was a nice movie. Though I expected more for my crying part. Haha. I thought I would be the worse or at least the first to start the tears flowing, but somehow it didn't turned out to be me. Lol. Quite surprised. :D

Before contiuning, I would like to say sorry to Rach and Ana! Cause I spoilt you two's date. Really so sorry! ):

So after the movie, we went to eat stingray and rice. That pathetic piece of stingray -.- Haha. But for the sake that I'm having it with old friends, yes its nice. And heart-warming too :D Then we(Ana and I), the 'xiao wo(s)' accompanied Rachel to collect her pay cheque(da wo). Lol, I know you people don't understand. Hahahahah! But who cares. Tsk!

Anw, Rach decided to be nice and give us a treat at Ben and Jerry's. Wooo. First time you know o.O! The mix was nice and colourful and I'm so happy and told them to took pictures cause I wanted to upload here to hopefully add some colors to my dry and dull and boring and colorless blog. Geeeez. So here you go, our wonderful ice cream! Don't small look it. It costs $13.80 -.- >

Excitement didn't went over that fast. We took self-portraits with the ice cream. Woooots!>

So we finished up the icecream within 20mins and also with sad songs playing behind us. Felt emo-ish. Ana is kind. She donated 50cents to the aunty o.O I'm glad that she is so kind! o.O Hoho.

Lol. Anw, thats the last memory of the icecream and us. Wooot whatever, still thanks Rach for the treat! (:

After reaching home, I forgot what I do. To be brief, I know I phoned JiaMin. After not long, she sent me a very sad msg thn I became very sad. Then I phoned Ana as well. Then ....*I forgot*.... I called Clarabel. We chatted till just now. Around 1.05am. We talked from the east to the west and from west back to the east. Lol. Rattering on and on about our futures, our past and friends.

" Hmmm, maybe one day all these will never happen again. But for what has already happened and whats happening now or maybe for whats not gonna happen anymore, I thanks god for letting me find a friend in her and for her to be always there with me. I know I'm not gonna hold on to the past and start crying for fearing what I'm gonna lost. And so does everyone else. After the talk, I understood even more. We need to do the best out of ourselves and we know its important. When we talk lesser next time, I know its not that we have forgotten about each other. Its just that we are both busy working hard towards our goals. Won't blame you for that and hope you won't too! (: Hahah. Good luck and never give up yea! Be happy. Always and forever! (:
With love, JinMay "

Yawns, its late already. Hope everything goes on smoothly tmr(later) :S
I'm worried. But now, goodnight peopleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
xoxoxo

2008-03-02T22:18:00.000-08:00

I wanted to be happy.
And I thought I can be.
But I looked at myself, and my life. Everyday.
Something is always not there. The thing that is making me feel so empty all these while.
It took me quite sometime to figure out what it was and honestly, it hurts alot along the way finding.

: Love is pain.

2008-02-29T10:05:00.000-08:00

I hope someone can understand and know.
What I'm fearing and what I'm worrying.
Somethings I can't say, somethings I can't do.

I'm just not yet ready for the truth. But I know,

somethings got to be changed.
Sooner or later. Whatever it is,
It will never be the same anymore.

'Every window pane shatterin'
Cutting off my words before I speak
This is how it feels to not believe'

2008-02-28T00:13:00.000-08:00

Ah Long Pte Ltd is zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz FUNNY! Laughing throughout the whole show can? -.-
Its fun, its funny, its hilarious okay. Just go and watch it for god's sake. Though maybe you are just left with a few bucks. Its worth it! No worry, just catch it with $6 cause these student offer -.-
Okay, I give you the permission to call me aunty. Lol. But, don't tell me you won't gian okay, poor kids? HAHA.

Thanks Ana and Rach (:

I'm disappointed.
I'm given false hopes for the continuous(sp?) zzzz don't-know how many times.
Why(?!) friends always get the great deal(s) while I'm left with all these shit? -.-
Seee, life is never fair! NEVER -.-

viwawa craze now? Hahaha.

2008-02-27T10:29:00.000-08:00

It would probably sounds like a joke if I tell anyone how I dreamt about you and woke up crying.
In my dreams, you told me everything I wanted to ask you all these while.
It seems like the last time I'm gonna dream about you.
You seem to be saying things like ' from today onwards, you won't be there anymore....'
I'm sort of afraid. Thats why I woke up crying.

Totally a joke.
Shouldn't everything suppose to die down by now?

Hah.

Yes, thats why I said its a total joke.

2008-02-26T23:58:00.000-08:00

Maybe I don't even understand a single bit about love.
So whats with loving someone and feeling hurt?
I'm just nothing and I guess, nothing matters anymore.
Just carry on, hold on, hang on and be happy.

2008-02-25T19:45:00.000-08:00

I think my blog damn boring. No one tag. I'm so sad ):
But still, I wanna contiune blogging. Heheh, passion for blogging? Haha, yup yup.

Anw, today is so not the right day to go out. But yet, I went out -.-
Cause promised XiangYu, I can't back out. So throwing aside the laziness feeling inside me, I still decided to meet her up. So Fiona came along too.

Awwwww, its a damn boring day I tell you. So we went to where? I tell you. Its TAMPINES! Nothing wrong about Tampines, but its just kinda boring. Damaians' favourite hanging place isn't? -.- Four years of raoming there, what do you think? Sad go there, happy also go there. Geeez. But for some reason, we still went without much complain. Haha, maybe we still hold abit of feeling for the place? Hahah -.- Since XiangYu is not feeling well, we decided to slack at PizzaHut and meanwhile, settle our lunch. Hmmmm. Guess what? Good thing happened! Haha. This girl came over to ask and ask us to help her do survey. Nothing attract us at first until the sentence 'After the survey, each of you will recieve a $5 discount voucher'. Haahah! For the sake of that $5 -.-

Then went walking around and to Fiona's house. So bored and went home around 6+/
I'm bored. Need some entertainment. Woo, interview tmr. :D Hope it will be a success! Haha.

<3s
Oh, Happy Birthday to HongJie (:

2008-02-22T20:57:00.000-08:00

Today is a day of nags -.-
Cause mother nagged non stop at me and bro. We are VERY irritated. Forgive us -.-

For me, could no longer stand her naggings anymore, I left home. Okay don't misunderstand me, I won't leave my home until I got the abilities. Which is maybe, I predict a few years down the road? Yea, I really hope so. Oh yah, which also reminds me of staying tgt with Rach and Michelle soon -.-
Lol, I think they forgot. But I still remembers. We talked about it on our way home after some board games outing.

Anw, so I left home to visit Anabel. Who I rotting at home too. I drank two packets of thing. I don't know how to spell -.- Then we ran through newspaper. Oh yah, then we applied for some tutor job. Well, please don't laugh. I'm serious about being a tutor okay! Haha. Yeah right -.- Laugh luh laugh luh. So we were happy about. I guess so? Around 5, we went to the library to return my books. Started raining, we walked around inter(-.-), saw a siaolang crossing the road, we were scared but acted one cool(-.-). Hahaha! Everything turned out to be very funny. LOL. Homed, I'm bored. Watch tevee. -.-

Due to Mujahid's blog, I started to like his blog song -.- And I kept on listening to it now. With all the lyrics running through my mind. 'Every step I take, every move I made. Every single day, every time I pray. Ill be missing you' Lol. I realised that the lyrics are quite meaningful (:

I'm hungry but I'm not eating. Not at this time definitely ): All the junk foods will be converted into fats. And more fats ): GET OUT OF MY WAY!
Oh Ana, your chicken wings and fried riceeeeeeee! HAHAHA. (:D)

2008-02-21T13:20:00.000-08:00

Well well well well, what should you do when you are feeling miserable and hopes that theres someone to talk to but yet for some reason, you are feeling tired and lazy?

Geeez.
Sometimes, we just need the correct people to be there at the correct time. But not everytime its like that. So now, all you are left with is just... yourself. Yes Jinmay, yourself.

Kinda moody cause I'm vexed over my job issues. The idea of working makes me so lazy to even move but I know somehow, someday soon, I must get one!
I hate going down for interviews too. Oh myyyyyy goddddd! ):

Anw, I'm stuck with the song Joseph sent me the other day. I feel so sad after listening to it. Lol. Emotional days here. I've been thinking and thinking. Thinking too much that now, I'm so tired. Why is my brain working so much on this kinda stuff? Geeez -.-

Sighhhhs. Work work work!
Lastly, I really really really really hope that the application can be successful. Hmm.

Bad Day ):

2008-02-20T14:21:00.000-08:00

I thought that maybe I will be feeling better after ytd night. But I think nothing is working. I don't know what to say and I don't feel like saying. Cause it hurts alot to make me think deep and realised how helpless I am. How tough its gonna be. I guess, its gonna take me other some time to accept all these whole up coming facts again. How can someone who have tried her best to cover up all her sadness all these while, surface up what she fearing again. I dread to think. To even think.............. I don't know.

Anw, ytd the postings for our poly and courses were out. Awaken up by Anabel(future coursemate) early in the morning. Lol. And eventually, we went into the same course and maybe by any chance, we are gonna be classmates for another 3 years. Hmm, so whats the feelings gonna like? Shall see (: Oh yah back, thn lots of phonecalls made, msg replied and sent. Conferenced with Boon and XiangYu. Thn Boon said they were going down to TP later on and asked us to join them and give them moral support -.- Okay, so we did went down with them in the end. Meet Xiangyu and Weiliang first. Then Boon came over to join. Had breakfast+lunch but I didn't have any. Awwww. Which resulted me to starve for the whole day ): Geeez. After eating, walked over to XiangYu's place. XiangYu's mum is cute! Haha. After quite a while, we went down to TP to join the rest. Thn they do their stuff and we did nothing but just pure waiting. Shu came down too. Ohwell. Sort of a mixed up kinda feeling. Lol. Thn Norman's father drove us over to NP. Thn when everything is over, he drove us back again. Hmmmmmmmmmm, its a long day for me. Oh well. Meet Anabel at the library. Lol. And I borrowed a book again. So now theres so many due dates for me to remember.

Yeayea, thats all about the day. Yesterday. Gonna miss them even more from now on. ):

As we goes on, we remember, all the times we, had together.........

2008-02-18T14:39:00.000-08:00

Friday: Away to Malaysia for Grandma's birthday feast. Ate good stuff but wasn't really good though. Reached there about time for dinner so yeah, after dinner, went to old house. And for the rest of the night, I could'nt recalled much. I slept with Wei.

Saturday: A day which made me feels like a Sunday. As usual, woke up at 9. Ben was found with red rashes over his body. Lol. Thn he start wrapping himself up with jackets and blankets. Fyi, Kwang covered him with 5 layers of blankets -.- So dumb. Thn mahjong, eat, mahjong, tevee. Ben still wasn't recovering so they bring him to the doctor. And heard that 10mins after his injection, he fainted. Poor thing ): At night, someone jio-ed all of us out again for dinner outside. How could a normal human being resist things like crabs/prawns/sotong and all that delicious stuff laying on the table before you. Everyone started digging in like I-don't-know what. :D But overall, nice food are too hard to resist. Awww, but while my hands were both busy, some part of my heart and at the corner of my mind, I'm still worrying about weights and all that is bothering me all these while ): At night, after watching tevee, the few of us played poker after some round of mahjong. Geeez, only turned in at 1am. Tskxz!

Sunday: Was suppose to leave for Sg early in the morning. But in the end, plan changed. We decided to visit 'bird-face' at his army place. Haha. Went with his Mom and Dad, 2 aunts and 2 uncles. As well as my parents and brother and Ben(who is still having red spots on his body). So dragged and dragged until 4+ after our lunch, then we went off in different directions after biding goodbye. We headed back to Sg while Uncles and aunts went back to JB. Its still early when we were back here. Watch tevee and then online. Mari talked to me and we started chatting(: Weeeeee~ Hahaha. I miss her la! So do I miss everybody): Went to sleep at 12plus, 1am.

Monday: Kinda bored, kinda dry. Oh suddenly, you flashed through my mind for a second. A moment of feeling ran pass as well. But I guess its no longer the same like how I used to feel. I hope we will be friends forever. Anw, early morning, was constantly awaken up by door knocks and phone calls. And I got super irritated when early morning the phone started ringing and when I finally MANAGED to drag myself out of the bed and walked over to the phone and extended my hand out for the phone to answer,it stopped ringing/that whoever irritating person hung up on the spot. Geeeez. Which make him/her even more irritating -.- I think everyone will understand what I'm trying to say yea? Sighs. Thn finally, no longer able to stand and permanently woken up, I decided to gave up my sleep. At then, its only 8+ in the morning! ): Onlined and checked out the HDB web and all. Thn suddenly, Sike msn-ed me telling me that he got dengue and is going to die soon -.-! Lol. Actually, its not confirmed yet. He just went for a blood test after 6 feverish days and only suspect that its dengue. And I think he made that suspect himself? Geeez alright, take care and hope its not dengue thn. (: Oranges do help alittle. Cause it helps to increase your blood sugar level. Mom said so.
Blah blah blah. Hope Ben can get well soon too! :D
Random thoughts:
I need a job. Any intro people?
I wanna relearn my guitar but I'm kinda lazy to -.-
I hope that we can move house successfully. Well, I've always wished it to happen.
New year goodies are ...... temptinggggggggggggggg ):

I wanna contiune watching my drama ;D
And also from now on, I shall stop complaining about everything. Cause I think of someone who wants a life like mine but sadly can't.
Goodbye loves! <3

2008-02-14T20:43:00.000-08:00

So many so many so many days since I've blogged. Ohwell, basically new year is kinda bored. Mahjong, food, mahjong, sleep. Thats all. Except for the last night before coming back to Sg. Chatted with cousins till morning 4. Feeling kinda good though theres only 4 of us while the rest were all sleeping. Talked, laughed and reminisce alot about the past. How we used to play tgt and what kinda stupid things we played. And also how one of the 'all of us' started to distance away from us due to growing up and work. Feeling how sad that he is no longer that close to us anymore. After talking about the old memories. Back to the present and the 2 guys talked about how they rejected girls and blahshit-.- Mainly just updated about our lovelife. Well, I got nothing to say. So just my part of listen and laugh. To my surprise, they really got girls going after them. What the? Must be blind -.- Hahah!
Anw thn back to Sg, nothing much. Life as per normal. Mon rot at home, tues rot too. Until ytd(Wed) did I really went out again. For some job interview supposingly. But then it ended up we went to Marina for movie. Catched Jumper. Quite a nice show yea. Do consider watching. Its about teleporting. Cool. Most importantly, handsome lead actor and pretty leader actress :D
Thn today, we went out again. For the same job interview but we couldn't find the place so gave up and went to Vivo. People, guess what? We wanted to go there for movie but who knows.......

SO MANY PEOPLE AND THE STUPID TICKETING MACHINE IS NOT WORKING -.-

In the end, we trained back to Tamp -.- Wooh, pls say we are pathetic. Cause realise sth? We went Vivo for nothing! Gaggggr!
And yah, today is Valentines. So to all happy couples, 'Happy Valentines'! and to all lonely sadists like me and Ana, 'Happy lonely Valentines'! Being sadists, we went around laughing at couples. Esp when the girl is holding on to flowers. Its everywhere I tell you. Don't you think theres nth special? Valentines? Chocs? Flowers? And Teddies? Heart-shaped balloons with 'I Love You'? I'm a sadist and so cause I can't get all these, I'm saying its bad. Hohohohohoho. Whatever. Leave it all when I find my valentine. If not, still all these bad about Valentines presents. Hahah!

Watched movie today again. KungFu Dunk this time! :D Nice. Handsome actors. Haha. Even some of the extras behind are goodlooking too. HAAHHA! Some people in the cinema are acting like they are at the real competition and screaming at every goal they made -.- Funnyyyyyy eh peopleeeeee. Lol. Bel went to watch with her sis since someone is having food-poisoning at home. Awww, so pathetic! Dinner-ed and thn trained home. I'm dead beat. -.-

Going off to sleep soon ): Yeah, after my show (:
Goodnight and goodbye!

2008-02-07T14:55:00.000-08:00

Aunt is sleeping alr. Hahaha! Anw, let me post some pictures for you! The day me and pigtan played with the super fake eye lashes and eyeliners. Haha. So fun. ;D And fyi, I dyed my holy black hair! Like finally (:

2008-02-07T14:41:00.000-08:00

After soooooo many days without blogging, I'm here again! And today is the super great day I've always looking forward to! Yes, its CNY day! -.- Haha. One day I always love. More than my birthday. Oh nonono, lets not include birthday cause I never loved my birthday before. Haha. I don't know what I'm talking about now. Gggggggg.
Yesterday was obviously the eve and the feeling is kinda different. Actually I don't really feel so much excitement luh. Cause maybe I have been here since Sunday and normally we will only come on the eve of new year so now, its like 'alright lor' you know you know. When everyone came, we had our reunion dinner which was eaten in groups. Sort of like a mini buffet. Haha. Table too small, too many people. Hmmmmm, but then I realised sth: Abalone is niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ;D
Okay okay. not much of a new year eve like a past. I spent the last few minutes of the chinese 2007 playing Turbo Subs. While its all peaceful inside the room and hearing the tv people shouting and screaming(-.-), big fire works were blasting outside, but again, theres not much excitement. Just like 'Yea, so thats the end'. Thinking back, the new year eve(s) of the past were so long to spent. Night always seems so young despite its late at night. Geeeez. Sighs, seems like everything has really changed. Yes, changed ): Now the only thing that kept me from sleeping early is this com and its games. -.- What a regretted new year eve! ):
Hmmm, enough, maybe I should stop putting sad smilies! Afterall. its still new year yea (:
Now, I'm still not yet in my new clothes. Cause I'm waiting for the time. Later, I will be going for Another round of reunion dinner at granny's place tonight. Somewhere more fun I guess. Cause at least the reunion is with all my cousins(alot). As in, the kids will own one table while the adults own the other. Haha. Then I think mahjong? :D Yes yes yes, so excited! Hahaha. Now, I'm kinda bored. Cause pigtan is listening to her songs and refusing to watch video with me and I'm sick with the TurboSubs, thn bro and his twin(-.-) is playing with another laptop. Some stupid soccer game. Vincent is bathing. While Aileenjie is sleeping her new year away. Then then then! Uncle and dad are sleeping their new year away too. Thn grandma and mom are in the kitchen. Thn aunt is lying on the floor watching tv somewhere beside me. And I predict she will fall into sleep soon also. Haha. The little ones are taking their afternoon nap too. Geeez, see how lazy our family memebers were? Hahaha. Hmmmmmmmmm! I don't know what to do now. >:/ Shall wait for the night to come. Faster plsssss! (; I'm rotting awayyyyyyyyyyyyy~ -.-

All chinese people:

Happy Chinese New Year! Gong Xi Fa Cai! :D

So I seeeeee.....
Ana is at Genting, I'm here at Malaysia too. Rachel is at China? Haha. Everyone is away. Theres no one online too. ):
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2008-01-30T21:47:00.000-08:00

Yeah, finally a day out! One happy afternoon after like so long. So I didn't know that just by going for one shopping spree, I can get all my cny clothings. And I'm really happy with what I've bought. Weeeee! One dress with one shirt and 2 tops :D
Tmr, will be going to Tamp with Ana for some accessories. Hopefully, I can get all I need. Yes, its a happy day today and I shall end everything here. Hohoh.
Be back here again tmr (:
Bye-bye-cycleeeee! -.-

2008-01-29T17:36:00.000-08:00

One of another boring day at home. Thanks to the com which wasn't funtioning in the morning, I have to occupy myself with storybooks. Yah, at least something to improve my vocab but its still kinda sad without the com. Just how the computer has became part of my life, I just can't seem to survive without it. Geez. Finally, when Brother reached home not long after, the com miraculously started working again. But too bad, he is out for his canoeing training. Hohoho. :D

I wanna change my phone. But that means I need to go work for more bucks so that I can change my phone and also have enough to spend off on other things. Gosh, seems like my working experience has not came to a fullstop. I need to get a new one again. And I also don't feel like going back to the choco place -.- Its dumb and it makes me feel damn aunty -.- Whatever it is, leave it to after Chinese New Year then. Yes, CHINESE NEW YEAR HERE IN 7 DAYS! Practically another one more week or so to go :D I just love how I spend my Chinese New Year(s). Maybe alots of people are hating the idea of celebrating Lunar New Year, but theres me who still love Chinese New Year as much as before. Yah, call me traditional or what, thats the way we should be behaving isn't it? Since all of us are all 100% chinese. Yeah yeah yeah. New Year (:

I hope I can scare you to death with this pic. Which I'm smiling like a moron. Hoho. Don't know how long have I not been capture by a phone or camera. I miss snapping pictures. And also, this is taken during one of the studying-for-Olevel outing. Awww. Now results are out and I'm officially so free from school. Feeling kinda empty actually. Like one more lesser thing to do each day. I mean, one big thing lesser -.- Those times we crapped together, those times we hanged out late tgt and those times when me and Xiangyu were left alone while the others gone on dates. Gosh, we have only us to depend on. Haha. And also the time when she and boon came pranking me and turned out to be an idiot and soon I joined them with their super jiao mission and started pranking Joseph. Haha, and also the times when I started chatting with boon online until 3am talking about our futures and turning emo -.- Also not forgetting this big bully beside me. Despite the times that he bullied me, theres also times when he said things that actually makes me feel better and his stupid accent which when telling jokes won't make me laugh. But still, he is also the only one who can make me laugh when I don't even feel like smiling. AND! I will never forget how he used to punch me until I got blue-blacks on my arms -.- From someone who never know how to say thankyou and sorry and seeing him 'grow' and now, he actually knows how to thanks me for my naggings and honestly, I'm really happy for me to have help someone achieved something and for him too. Take care my this really special friend! Lastly, also this crazy partner called Samantha who is crazily evil. But despite being so evil, I still love her. Haha. Forever remembering how often we visited the toilet everyday without fail and I will never stop myself from laughing the moment I recalled what we have done tgt. Like the time when the toilet taps stop functioning and so she went to the toilet bowl to try out if its still working. But yet, I put my hands into the water that came running out from the bowl. She was all caught in surprise. Haha! End up, we laughed till tears came out from the corner of our eyes. I felt so stupid, seriously. LMAO. And how we always seems to understand how the other one feels and doing things and thinking of the same thing at the same time. Its hard to find another friend like you. Thanks for everything Samantha evil aka Cbel Low Wei Li. Haha ;D And many many more. Everytime I remember back, I feel like typing it all down. I'm so afraid that I might just forget it one day ): Whatever come may, I just hope the best for everyone and really really hope we can meet up again really really soon. Just how much I missed those studying times and the ability to see everyone everyday. Now that everyone seems to be going different directions, it kinda hurt though to think that we may not be able to meet again that often. But after sometimes, maybe absence makes our heart fonder. This way, we can remember each other more clearly and feel really happy if we meet again one day. Feeling so nostaglic all of the sudden ):

Ending here, goodbye, with love. Kon-kon. :D

2008-01-28T15:59:00.000-08:00

Finally! Everything has came to a fullstop. No more work, no more decision making, no more worrying about results. Yes, nothing left. Oh yah, actually, one more. I need to get my new year clothes! Ytd, I bought about $100+ worth of goods from that stupid Converse sales. T-shirts for my brother and cousins, bag and shoes for myself. Holy, I almost spent half of my pay there. Hah, whatever, the pay was $3 away from $300. Who is willing to give me that $3? Hahah. -.-

Anw, I was soooo damn worn out ytd. Really so I don't know what to say. Finished work at 11! Everyday, same routine, same thing over and over again. Woke up at 6+/7+ to prepare, went out to meet Ana thn the rest. At first, we arranged to meet for breakfast and then soon, due to our laziness, we decided to just meet at the bus stop outside the place. I feel so sorry for my legs. But seriously, I feel like chopping off my legs cause its adding on to the pain I'm experiencing! Ahhhh. But sadly, I can't -.-! Whatever. At first, it was Me, Ana, Clarabel, XiangYu and ShuZhen working but after that, ShuZhen didn't contiune and hence I asked Yingtao the small mouth to come and replace. For the last second day. Me, XiangYu and Yingto while Anabel and Clarabel. We incharge of different sections. Geez. So tiring mann our place. Everything were thrown here and there, so messy then we fold and fold then in the end, messed up again. For 5 days, we are having the same routine and I tell you, its really tiring can. Lunches and dinners were provided. And the pathetic 4/5 of us just sit outside the lift area for every of our break. Geeez. Some of the people went off half way cause they find it too tiring. But we survived through! Haha. Until the last day, which is ytd, then it was much better. Though tiring, but we sort of talked to the guys and some communication. Lol, super jiao and look like Joseph, the guy at our side. Retarded slow too. I don't know whats his name. But his initial is K.H. Then some of them on the other side. Those incharged of the mixed up stuff outside. Haha. We will send out some sound effects for each other when we need to pass each other things. Cause we don't know their names and they don't know ours -.-! Haha. Oh yah, I think got one called Derrick? Haha. Stand until 11 ytd. Thanks god Dad came and fetch me and XiangYu gian-ed the ride too. Hahaha. Went home, bathe, watched Goong(Cbel's) and then submitted the registration and zzzzoooom, off to sleep! And until this morning 11+am. This is the happiest morning I had ever had. Without Mom's nagging even when I slept until 11+! :D Lol, And I felt that I just got home from a camp. Energy level near to zero and having walking difficulties! -.-

Sike was too bored earlier this afternoon. He started singing JENNY over our msn conversation with caps on and thn EVERYWHERE -.-! And the whole conversation when I don't reply quickly, he occupied his time singing. Or rather, typing out the lyrics. And now I'm stucked with EVERYWHERE. Cause I'm too lazy to change my song. Haha.
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-' `Sike. says:
u pick liao?
-' `Sike. says:
FIRST U SAY U WONT
-' `Sike. says:
THEN U SAY U WILL
-' `Sike. says:
U KEEP ME HANGING ON
-' `Sike. says:
AND WE:RE NOT MOVING ON
-' `Sike. says:
STANDING STILL JENNY
-' `Sike. says:
U GOT ME ON MY KNEES
-' `Sike. says:
JENNY
-' `Sike. says:
ITS KILLING ME
-' `Sike. says:
ITS KILLIN ME
-' `Sike. says:
JENNNYYYYYYYYYY
-' `Sike. says:
FIRST U SAY U WONT
-' `Sike. says:
DEN U SAY U WILL
-' `Sike. says:
U KEEP ME HANGING ON
-' `Sike. says:
AND WERE NOT MOVING ON
-' `Sike. says:
WE;RE STANDING STILL JENNY
-' `Sike. says:
U GOT ME ON MY KNEES
-' `Sike. says:
STANDING STILL JENNY !!!!!!!!
-' `Sike. says:
JENNY
[c=50]Green[/c] says:
T_T
[c=50]Green[/c] says:
what you want? -.-
-' `Sike. says:
....................
[c=50]Green[/c] says:
?
[c=50]Green[/c] says:
courses?
-' `Sike. says:
wad course u pick
-' `Sike. says:
YA
-' `Sike. says:
say until so fierce jenny
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I don't understand why he must end off that last sentence with jenny? o.O
Theres more okay, just that I'm too lazy to edit and put it here -.-
And yah, finally, his idea of a pig:

_/\___/\
( " (o o) " )
6 @
6______@
)

my developed version:

^ ^
( @ " (oo) " @ )

(He shouted fat pig -.-)
But ain't pig suppose to be fat? LOL. The pig balloon is much cuter!
See,

/\ /\
( " (oo) " )
@ @
@__@
)
(

Shitsssz theres sth wrong with the pigs. Just try to imagine luh. The spacing can't seems to work here after I saved. Geeez! Fancy such a big guy doing such a thing? I can't imagine. -.-
Alright, the three little cute pig shall keep you company! (: Goodbye! I have loaded the Nobuta Epi8 but I can't watch again. What the fucking fuck -.-? #%^!*$*_

2008-01-25T00:48:00.000-08:00

OKAY! Here I am, no more counting down, no more 'I'm very nervous'! Cause results are out and everything is over. I got 15 for my L1R4! I'm really happy enough alr serious. Cause I expected worse. Holy overrrrrr. Yeaaaaaaa, time to party? Haha. Its time to finally sigh with a smile. Haha. Sigh (:

Time flies I don't know what. Really so fast. Not long ago we were all just sitting for the papers. And we were all saying things like its still long before we recieve our results so lets just play all we want now. But now? I really cant believe how everything flies. Hmmmm, maybe I should treasure my time even more now. Before I lose grip of what I'm holding on to:D
And I'm really very happy today. Cause I can see everyone! Hahah. And I feel happy for people too. And blahblahblah. See BoonHui keep smiling and smiling and can't stop myself but also feel happy for him too. At least he did his best and he made it. Cheerssss! Thn for people like XiangYu, Fiona, Bel. We scored close. So the feelings is kinda close too. But still, congrat girls! We have all made it :D

Overall, thankyou to everyone that have helped me achieve everything! For all the motivations and all. (:
I think I need to stop here alr. Will continue with the thankyou speech next time. Have got work tmr and I'm suppose to get out of bed at 5plus later on. Geeez. Goodnight people!

Admit that you are as childish as me la, khair (: (HAHA)

2008-01-23T00:00:00.000-08:00

Hey people! I'm left with around 20-30mins to brief blog about the day. Gonna make it fast. Cause like I'm aiming to sleep at around 12. And I'm left with 6hours to sleep before forcing myself out of bed again. Meanwhile, waiting for my hair to be dry up further more. Heh. Now, just relax alittle.

Anw, today was the first day of work. The sale starts tomorrow! So today is just going there to help prepare the things for the sales. Super tired and its super hot can! FREAKING HOT-.- The things are damn cheap and of quite high quality too. I recommend you people to go and look around. Lotssssss of shoes, lots of shirts(Converse, Everlast, Kappa), theres bags and socks too. Though the place is abit er, far in and diserted(?) Still, can go and check those things out. Its at some quiet lane of PayaLebar. Lol.
After work, which is around 5+, we went around to reserve the things we want and thn took 22 to Tamp. ShuZhen went home while me and the two bels went for a movie(Dan in real life(?)). Not really sure of the name. But it has got something to do with Dan la. Haha stupid. Now, listen up people, don't go and watch okay? Its lame and not that funny. Only those stupid-kind-of-funny at some parts. Overall, I don't get whats the moral of the story and I don't get what they are trying to say too -.- Maybe for the first few parts, I wasn't really focusing on the movie so hence, causing me not to understand the movie. Whatever it it, I just don't like it and strongly is not to recommend it. Maybe it suits more for people around 25-30? Yes I think so cause those around us watching were of that age too -.-
After such a long day, finally am going home. Felt so happy -.-! Haha. Got home and reached at 10. Bathed, watch TV, wait for my freaking long hair to dry up before entering the air-coned room, read storybook as well. If I Have A Wicked Stepmother, Where's My Prince? Its a nice book. At least it got me into reading it. Lol.
Awww, my opposite side of my ankle is hurting again. Agggh! Alright, I think I'll be going from here then. Goodnight! (:

Yeayeayea. Khair, stop reminding me of the amount of time left before death uh? If I don't do well, you are gonna treat me to sth! Haha. Crazy, but I really hope that I don't get any of your treats. Oh mann! Since I'm reminded, to be exact, we are left with: 38hours!!!!

2008-01-21T13:12:00.000-08:00

Oh mann, I just can't believe it! Its THIS(for holy's sake) thursday! The release of O'level result is just this coming thursday. Oh my, I can't imagine how terribly I'm gonna die. Geeez. So worried can. Another 1...2...3...4 days away(only)! I guess I can't do anything. Can I? So I think I should stop whining and just pray hard that the results will just be nice enough for me to accept ):

I'm praying, praying, praying.

2008-01-20T19:46:00.000-08:00

Ugh, what a boring and dry day. I'm stucked at home for the whole day without getting to use the com(until now) and just facing the TV and storybook. Its like a torture mann. Geeez! Sometimes I just hope that I can be just like some of the beautiful girls out there, shopping, dolling themselves up, going crazy for the newest stuff featured on the mag or trying their best to save up as much as possible to get what they wanted so badly. As in those costly cosmetics and beautiful clothes. I don't know why I'm saying all these desptie the fact that its making me sounds so pathetic, but I mean I really hope I have a life like that. Honestly. I don't know what my life all about? I see no interest in doing shopping like what the other girls will do when they have the time cause nothing seems to attract my attention everytime I'm out and I don't know what I really needed afterall. I rather waste my time rotting at home. Ugh, whats with this? Something is not right somewhere right? Are my guy-ly hormones ruling me? Gaggg! Haha. Crapsss! Just ignore -.- Thats what you get when you have no choice but to be stucked at home for a whole full day.

Sometimes, I just hope that I can slow down my life by alittle. I realised that time has really passed some fast. And many things has happened and changed us. Now then I know, from a long long long time ago, we has already all not been the same. No longer heading towards the same directions but instead, going towards what we want, what we desire and learn as we go. I mean, it took me sometime to really settle all those feelings down and accept it. Now, seeing everyone around me smile and be happy will be enough I guess. We could no longer gather as we like, meeting up early in the morning every single day, doing stupid stuff and games. We can no longer go for break together and share our drinks. But now, what we will all be looking forward to while busy with our own stuff will be the next gathering we might be having right? The feeling will still be good? We will still be good friends who chatted and crap and joke like nobody's business right? And yah, meeting after a long long after, will makes us feel really really good too right? So now friends, fly as high as you can and grab as much as you want. After everything, we will still meet again and catch up with each other one day. Yea? (:

2008-01-19T22:20:00.000-08:00

Hey yoy. Happy Birthday to Mujahid! :D

Today, met up with JiaMin and JiaXin. At Bedok Inter. Boring place, but no choice cause my bus fare has risen and its 89cents now -.- Just might as well say 90cens right? Whats with the 89cents mann. Geez! We met up kinda late like around 3. Thn we sat and talked and ate and help JiaMin with her things and all. Heheh, just plain slacking for me. Yeahhhh. Saw HongJie outside the NTUC. He was working and when I go to the library before returning home, I ran into him again. As usual, he is still so jiao-.-! Hahaa. Only difference is that theres a few highlights on his head. I said I missed his jokes! Those stupid jokes, actions and faces that never fails to make me burst into laughters. Hah.
Went home with a few books in my bag and after that I forgot what I did. Thn Jing and Ben(again) came over, slacked laughed talked. Lol. Uber funny. And stupid too -.-

Geeeeeeeeez! I'm so bored now and I hope that Chinese New Year can faster be here. Woooh, I love Chinese New Year(s)! :D

2008-01-18T21:47:00.000-08:00

Yes, and finally, I'm still back to blogger. Blogger seems to be more fun to me. Heh! At least you get to decorate your tagboard and stuff. Since now everything is fine, I shall officially start blogging and try being faithful to blogger. I went around to look for a presentable blogskin, got a really hard time typing out my self-intro and also linked up people. So troublesome seriously. Lol. Anw, the tagboard is up too! So people, really really do tag me. Though I don't know if the tagboard will be working fine. But still, TAGGGG! I will reply as soon as possible yea. Thank(ssssssssssssssssssssss)! (:

Anw, I'm off from work. And finally, it the last day. Yes, though its kinda bored. I mean, very bored. Cause I got no one to talk to. As in, all the peeps there are aunties and uncles. There are guys too. But its kinda weird, cause they are working outside. As in, not in the room so obviously, theres no communication uh! But the aunties and uncles there are really nice la. Like, they will ask you if you have your lunch alr , etc etc. So thoughtful. Thats why I stayed for 7days! (HOLY) And I have also overcome the thought of quiting. YEAH, I have done it yeaaa! I got my pay today too. Weee, total up to $214! Hoho. And tmr, I will be meeting JiaMin. NO WORK NO WORK NO WORK! :D

I saw Yingto yesterday. And we met like in a weird kinda way. Haha. So funny. She board the bus I was in, thn she sat beside me but not knowing that that was me. Me too don't know that its her. Thn suddenly she 'EH!', and I was so shocked that I kept on laughing when we talked -.- Haha!
I'm kinda worried about my results now. My heart pounding really fast everytime the thought strucks me! Gosh. When when when? Faster annouce out the date please. And stop keeping us suspended like that guessing the dates ourselves!
Random right? Jumping here and there. Lol. Last adding on to the random-ness, I'm watching Nobuta Wo Produce now. Super nice and funny! The Akira guy is really really really, I-don't-know-what-to-say cute! Like finally I can watch cause its like I wanna watch it since dont know when -.-

Goodnight! CoffeePrince now :D

2008-01-16T21:51:00.000-08:00

I guess I will be back with Blogger. Everything looks more beautiful here. Haha. But now, I'm alittle not free as I have got some episode to catch up and later some tv shows. Yeah, be back soon. Really soon eh! (:

2007-11-03T20:20:00.000-07:00

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2007-10-28T15:59:00.000-07:00

Hmmm, I'm switching to LiveJournal.
So, I'm sorry. but I'll have to abandon this aside.
But thanks for accompanying me all these while eh! :D
Lol. I'm talking to my blog -__-

Anw yah, find me on my new Livejournal web!
( Click Here )

Rmb to comment too :D
Goodbyessss~

2007-10-26T21:35:00.000-07:00

I'm back with blogging again -_-
I'm a slacking piece of shit now!
Grrr.
Alright, firstly, I don't know whats the big fat problem with my tagboard.
I can't see it and I got super irritated. And in the end! Decided to take it off.
Imagining people: You got a tagboard which you can't reply your tags!
Super f-up with cbox. Lousy cbox -_-

Anw, I rang XiaoYun up yesterday night(this morning).
She was so shocked and couldn't accept the fact that I'm calling.
Okay, miracles do happens yea :D
Then we chatted for a whole long 2hrs. From 12am-ard2am
Digging out old stuff to talk about, and neoprints.
And realised how toot we were and all kinda stuff!
Haha, and we say we wanna post up some of the UGLY neoprints some day after O'level.
So beware, Ana & Rach! Don't come screaming at us when the day comes. I'm giving you warning now! Buahahahahahhah.
Well, I feel so miserable when I told her I missed her! ):
Really all the tears rolling in my eyes.
Thn talked about how the 6sisters came about.
Holy, its dumb. But I was so shocked that she rmbed the whole scenerio.
Well, I still rmbs, Ana rmbs, JiaMin rmbs. How about Rach &JY? ):
Hmm, the whole scenerio still lingers in my mind like it only happened yesterday.
Well, I can only say. Old friends are still the best! (:
Yes, and I love them. Only that now, things have changed.
But doesn't matters, cause memories are still the precious!
Lets go out one day after the whole big O'level.
Oh yah, and 2e4 chalet too! Gonna talk till the world drop (:
Wooh, time fliessssssssssssssssssssssssssss.
4years of friendships, tonnes of wonderful memories.

(Those suahgu days -_-)

Okay, back to the present world.
Today is Friday and I got no paper!
JiaMin is one lucky person. Cause the two chapters she studied came out!?
Hello, no one luckier than you alr :D
Went back to school to do Maths and MrsChen was there to help too.
6 of us. Hardworking uh? (Yess)
I shall name all the hardworking souls. (Xy, Jm(me), Boon, Sike, Kj, Jose)
Yes, and we do and do and do.
Until teacher went away, thn we started slacking alr ):
Oh mannnnn.
Thn we played a lame game. Everyone contribute 10cents thn open numbers.
The 'winner' gets all the 10cents. And its ME! :D
Lol, thn the worse thing came. They started prank-calling XXX
Hahahah, LMTO!
Went home after awhile. Then rot rot rot, sleep sleep sleep, and online.
Until now.
Status: Busy (Rotting)
Lmao, but I'm gonna recover my status soon.
Yes, and start doing lots of maths while waiting for my TV show! :D
Yeaaaaah, old photos any one?

Nights to the world,
Adios~ (:

2007-10-26T19:00:00.000-07:00

All the old old pictures:

Hello Evil! I deleted off your face :D

Whats with the legs -____-!

(This is exclusive. Just happen to find this AGAIN! LMTO)
Featuring: Present 4E5 members (:

Cool stufffffff!

2007-10-25T20:18:00.000-07:00

My heart tells me what to do.
&I know what my heart tells me so.

It says 'I Love You', but without the 'Idiot!'

Cause you are not there to hear it and no way for you to respond.

I'll be back to the begining soon.

Cause you are leaving soon.

&I don't wanna see how bad I feels, so I'm letting go now.

You are a habit I'm learning to kick off.

Yes you, my habit.

2007-10-25T19:53:00.000-07:00

Hey people!
I'm back. For at least now. I mean, today.
Actually nothing much to blog about.
But since I'm allowed to use the com for a little while more today.
I'm just gonna nonsence abit here.
Yeaaaah, no papers tmr! Good luck to those taking History tmr (:
Its examination period and everyone got really standard routine and thats,
study -> sleep -> wake up -> eat -> studyyy again -> go school -> take paper -> go home
And the whole cycle starts again. Oh my god! Boring ):

But after O's, I'm gonna blog alot yea.
Anw, since I'm here, I shall update abit more.
Tuesday was the last day of the countdown and yesterday was the first day of following paper(sssss).
Subj: Chemistry
Agh, I guess I didn't do well.
But I'm trying not to care about it much since its like over and theres no way things gonna change. Though the qns still linger in my mind sometimes. ):
Meet up early to study alittle.
Started getting tensed up, cold hands and shivering fingers.
Paper started at 2.30
Sat with Biren and we were snatching for the fan. LOL -.-
Then --------------------->(1h15mins later)
I striked out the Chemistry date. Its overrrrr!
And now, we are officially left with 8 more examination days! :D
Like soooooo fast.
Hmm, wonder how time flies. I wanna fly too. Haahha.
Got home and started studying for Geography!
Its hell. Agriculture got super lots of things to memorise.
No time to write notes anymore!
Tried my best to understand rather than just memorising.
Went to sleep at 12.10am! Only managed to sleep at 1+
Aching muscles and ankle is making things worse ):
I feel so 'old-lady' -.-
Paper starts at 2.30 also.
Changed seats. Troublesomeeee!
This time, sat beside YuJie. We didn't snatch for anything.
Hahah, cause theres nothing for us to snatch.
Then ----------------------->(1h 30mins later)
I drew another line across today's date.
Yes! Left with 7more examination days :D
Hurrray. I know it will flyyyyyy.
Soon, I will be typing, 'Today is the Sci MCQ Paper!'
And when I type this, it means that we have another 6 more days to prepare for the POA MCQ and thats it! Holidays are here to conquerrrrrrrrr :D

But putting aside all these future happiness, next week will be a really tedious week luh.
Good luck to all! :D
Monday: 3 papers in a row-.- (EL1, EL2, MATHS1)
Tuesday: MATHS2
Thursday: POA, F&N
Friday: PHYSICS
Urghh, why is F&N and POA all squeezed up tgt in a day ):

Hmmmm, its less than a month to China trip!
Oh my god, looking forward to it so much.
But yah, one month later's today, I will be back from China.
Yeahhhhh ~
But I'm feeling really sad that I can't make it for Prom night too):
And missed the chance to learn drums. ):
After Prom, we will all be going off in different directions alr eh?
Fewer chances to meet up again. Very sad luh!
Hmmm, but its okay. We shall meet again during chalet.
Yes! It must be held. By hook or by crook. :D
I'm also very eager to see the changes in everyone when we meet again.
Haha, sure change damn lot one. I wanna get shocked with all the changes.
Interesting :D
Maybe.........
(Imagining in process) Hahahah!

Was emo-talking to Boon that day online. About futures, about lots of things.
And were talking about 10yrs later, when we meet again and all that kinda stuff.
Kinda sad to think of it actually.
But still, don't think too much. Cause nothing last forever and we will learn to accept it oneday.
Just cherish whatever you have with you now and be contented!
Life will be alot easier this way.
Its tiring to compete and all.
So, lets be ourselves!

Hmm, yah.
More of these emo-ish post some other days.
After this big O thing is over.
Now, I shall go get a bathe, watch some TV and maybe do some Maths before sleep.
Attending some wedding ceremony on Sat at Sentosa. Oh my goddd. Boring stuff!
Yeahhhhhhh, Ping and Pong is(are) funny. LMTO
Lol, I got a new name: Charlotte Stupid May.
Oh haha and I wanna say hello to Samantha Evil Bel?
Hahahahahahahahah! Saw this? I got you a new name!
Note your head if you saw.
Hahahah! I'm enjoying myself here :D
Happy chionging art!
Anw, randomness.
Friends foreverrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Love ya! (:

(Be glad that I ended this post with 'I Love Samantha'.)
Yes, Samantha Evil is my good buddy ~~~
Hahahaha. (;

2007-10-20T22:32:00.000-07:00

No one is perfect. Keep on improving yea (:

Today is a lousy day.

Didn't do lots of revision. Just alittle.
And I mean, really alittle.
Went for some stupid ceremony at MarineParade CC.

Really boring stuff.

Well, drop it. Zzzz

And, I'm going off before Mum comes back.

Just feel so urge to blog. Though I'm short of time.

But my blog is dieing soon ):

I need my pictures! I need new pictures.

I wanna edit, I wanna upload! ):

Grrrr.

Yoy, its time I go.

Byes!

Irritating tagboard. So idiot -.-

2007-10-18T18:15:00.000-07:00

I screwed up my practical today! ):
Its not a good start.
Oh mannnnnnnn.
Sighs, and we wasted time talking at Simei just now T_T
Goodnessss.

Okay, so theres even more reasons why I shouldn't be typing away here uh?
OKAY! I will go away from here after this. Very fast, very quick.
Get a bathe and STUDY!

Yes yes yes.
I need motivationnnnnnns!

And yah, won't be blogging that often nowadays.
I think I will even stop myself from the computer.
God damn it, in another 6 days time!
Awww, really can't imagine.
How time flies.

Gotta go, goodbye to all (:

2007-10-17T18:25:00.000-07:00

Went studying, AT SCHOOL!
With ppl like, XiangYu, Joseph, Boon and Bong.
Can't believe uh? o.O
Hah, but yah, WE STUDIED (alittle) :D
Chatted abit too.
I'm so tired.
Went home at 5, while the guys went to Katong.

Get home, got nagged, got scolded again.
Somehow, I'm like so numbed to this kinda situation.
Do I have a choice?
I'm not feeling anywhere home.
Its only coldness and loneliness all around.
I hope someone understands.
And please let me know that I'm not alone.
But I think one day, I will just leave home and never walk back again.
Wait, we shall wait.
I got so hard to walk over such a life I have.
Now, my wounds don't heal but I'm not feeling anymore pain.
I just feel so ... numbed already.
God, when can I insert a fullstop into such a life like mine?
How I wish someone understand.
I really hate my life, and I'm starting to hate Mum.
Yes, seriously.
Please, don't let that happen can?
I don't wanna hate my mother, I don't wanna hate my family.
So please, stop all these can?
And please know how much I want this to end.
I DON'T HAVE A CHOICEEE!
I WANT A FAMILY, MY FAMILY, MY MOTHER!
GOD, CAN YOU HEAR WHAT I'M CRYING FOR?

2007-10-16T21:33:00.000-07:00

Awww, I got really cold hands now! ):
I don't feel like blogging.
Suddenly like many things to blog.
But ...
Seriously so not in the mood.

I see myself change.
I try to forget.
I try to make myself feel better.
But god, why am I not feeling anywhere better?
I wrote so many sorries on my paper and wish I have a bottle to collect my tears.
But hey, none of it is making me good either.
I wanna shut myself away from the world.
I wanna cry the shit out of me.
If one day, everyone were to turn their backs on me,
will you still be there?
I wanna count with my fingers.
Well, the world is really unfair.
Yah, maybe I should really accept how MY life is.

I need to study.
But has lost all those motivation!
Grrrrrrr.
Countdown to O'levels:
freaking 8 days

2007-10-13T13:10:00.000-07:00

Slacking alot these few days.
Grrrr, gonna get myself started again.
But seriously, my motivation just went away like that. ):
(100%, where are you?) <-- Lol.
Anw, I blogged alot last night, but didn't post it up.
Cause its very long and its not even half way there -_-
So I have decided to give a summarised version. :D

Thursday:
Its somehow the last day of school.
We have a oh-so-whatever-really boring Graduation Ceremony!
So warm and they have all the fans to the teachers and leaving us with nothing!
Nothing much but just prize givings. -_-
How boring can a GRADUATING ceremony be!
Went out for lunch at Seoul Garden with the people.
There are 12 of us:
Shu, XiangYu, Bel, Boon, Me, WeiLiang, Hong, JJ, Sech, Joseph, YiWei, QinXiang.
Super weird combination :X
Played guessing-number game. Thn have to eat awful foods.
Icecreams with chillies, beef, prawns, cornsoup and more.
Another one is raw egg with chilly sauce :X
Went to Dan's house awhile and left for home.
Its a nice day out with friends (:
Though its the last day, but I really enjoyed myself.
Thanks people. Must really meet up after O's yea!
Such a pity no one bring camera ):
I will miss all the funs! 4E5'2007 OIII :D

Friday:

Happy Birthday Daniel Ong :D

Went for study.
With Bel, Ellene, and Bel's sister at Airport.
Then XueQian come.
Accompanied Ellene to Tampines.
Ate our dinner. And talked and talked.
Well, its being so long since we have talked.
Everyone changed throughout the 2years and yah. learning to accept.
Thn waited freaking long for a stupid 65!
So warm, and we were like perspiring away.
Thn on the bus, she told me sth very very very important.
Thats the first blow I suffered for the night.
So funny and I kept laughing. LOL!
Reached home at 8.
Then chatted with her on the phone awhile thn called Bel.
Soon, the 2nd and 3rd blow hit me hard on my face!
Gosh, -_-
Shall not bother about it already.
Chatted with Xy until 12+
Watch TV until 1+
Its another sinful day :X
I'm guilty.

Saturday:
I'm alone at home.
I'm using computer ):
I need to study! JinMay, STUDYYY!
I guess, it will be another sinful day again ):
Goodbye. My neck is aching! Awww.

Wounds will heal.
But scars always remain.

2007-10-10T21:43:00.000-07:00

After going through so much, I suddenly realised.

Actually happiness is very easy.

Its just to be contented with what you are holding on to.

And learning to accept the every fact that couldn't be changed.

Life's really easier this way round.

I've learnt how to, what about you?

2007-10-10T21:33:00.000-07:00

Grrrrr. Ever since I quarrelled with Mum last Saturday night.
I didn't touched the computer!
Oh, so its a good thing or what? :X

So I've not been blogging for like 3 days.
Awwwww, and I don't get whats the problem with the tagboard!
Damnnn. I can't see a single shit! Grrrrrr.
Whatever -_- Pissing me off really much. Grrrrrr!

Anw, school is still in a total chunk of mess.
And I really hate the idea of going.
But doesn't really matters now, cause tmr is the last day of the block timetable!
Yayayayeahh :D
Its also the Graduation Day.
Sad to part actually. But nothing last forever luh.
So yeah, just accept the fact then ):
Agggr, time is passing really fast.
The number of days to O'level is so .... -_-
I wanna cry! So stressed up for the previous days luh! :X
Aww, next Thursday is already Science Pratical! (T-T)
AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGR!

Okay, enough whining here.
Today was really fine I guess?
We skipped English lessons and sat at the back of the classroom block.
Talked and laughed -_-
Xiangyu don't need to bent when she runs! LMAO.
She laughed at herself too. Very patheticccc! zzz.
Then we skipped Chinese and went Changi Airport.
With Xiangyu, Cbel, ShuZhen and Boon.
Lol, pathetic. He was the only guy -_-
But was quite fun though.
We studied alittle.
Then at 4+, went to the viewing mall and watched planes.
Talked about our futures and all. Lol!
Looking ahead now uh!? :D
Sighs, how will my future be like?
Gaga, what about yours?
Hah.

Went home at 5+
Hmmm, rotting alittle now.
Will be back to Maths later!
Sighs, MATHS IS KILLING~
Haven't started my on my Combined Humanities. ):
And, bloody accounts -_-

Grrrr, too much grrr-ing. LOL!
Take care and good luck to all.

2007-10-06T20:34:00.000-07:00

I'm back! I'm tired! I wanna sleep! ):
QA is sooooooooooooooooo gonna kill me.
Urghhhh! Couldn't understand a single shit.
Ewwww -_-

Anw, it took me some time to get back my mood.
Was pulling a long face all morning.
Seriously got no mood.
All the way until Cbel msged me and managed to make me feel alittle better.
Then studying at the library was alright.
Still thinking about stuffs and couldn't concentrate. ):
But after that was fine luh.
So yah, studied alittle Physics and Chemistry.
Then, went to LongJohn to find Cbel after her piano lesson.
Talked and laughed.
Oh mannnn, we talked alot!
From one topic to another T-T
and, wasted timeeee! Grrrr.

Walked Cbel to the bus stop but then go Shop n Save -_-
Then back to bus stop again. Grrrr, timeeeeee ):
Then went to BK and study.
We ate fries without oil :D
Hahahaha!
Went home at 5+. Decided to walk home.
And my mind can't hesitate to start thinking again.
Hmmm, hows this world gonna become one day?
Whats my world all about?
Love? Happiness? Selfless-ness? I think it will all gone by then.
Sighs, life life life! ):

Got home, ate alittle.
Don't really have any appetite :/
Onlined.
And now, chatting with Khairul Fahmi. -_-
We started comparing display pictures and commenting on it.
Very lammme.
Then he says he wanna have childrens -_-
Who wanna marry him, please be fast! o.O?
Hmm, I doubt theres any! :X (Hahahah)

Alright alright, I'm stopping here.
At least someone managed to make me laugh alittle luh.
Thanks Bel and Khair (:
And to Bel:
Cheer up! I'll always be here for you.
Follow your heart. It will bring you to where you wanna go.
(:
Sighhhhs. Goodbye!

2007-10-06T09:27:00.000-07:00

Finally some photos.
Well, this is how cute my class people can get!
Haha. Playing golf with paper balls and broom outside our classroom.
But yah, thats how cute they are. (:
Happened to saw it on -silentkisses.blogspot.com/(Rachel)
Hmm, hope you don't mind I koped the photos. {:

I tried watching Nobuta alittle just now.
But the show got jammed up.
So, tmr bah ):
Anw, I'm leaving for library soon.
Studying with the rest.
And I'm going to be late for sure! ):
Sorry peopleeeee(s).

But I'm blogging here. Cause I wanna tell XiaoYun:
HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN TO YOU!

This is the only picture I can find that I have taken with you.
Meaning, its a long time since we take pictures. Oh my god ):
Anw, really missed all the little quarrels with you! Haha.
I can't imagine that we are quarrelling so much last time.
But well, that was all in the past.
Towards our different future, jiayou bah! (:

With love, I'm leaving this com like finally.
Yeahh, byes all!

2007-10-05T22:05:00.000-07:00

Skipped school! Yeah, and lucky we skipped.
Or else we will be boooked and I simply can't imagine what will happen next!
Phewww {:
Only Fiona went (out of 6 girls) -_-
Went over to Cbel's house around afternoon time.
Didn't study much though.
But at least I did one POA question :D
And I understand how everything works now. Laloohleh {:
Other than that, some Chemistry too.
Stayed until 6+
Hohoho, saw how retarded her sister can get. Haha.
But they are all so cute luh! <-- Bel, see this? :D

Then she accompanied back to school bus stop -_-
She told her mum that she accompany me go and assessment book.
Oh aunty, don't hate me pleaseeeee! ):
LOL.
But actually, we were talking and talking and talking.
We didn't stop talking until 2 hours later.
We always seems to have so many things to talk about whenever we sit down and get everything started.
You know -_- Well, I guess no one will ever knows.
We sat at the bus stop until it was 7+
Talking all the way -_-
We got too many things to catch up on. Everytimeeeee :D
Lol, felt so great to share with her what I have been keeping to myself for quite some times.
And at least now someone knows how I'm feeling everytime.
Thank you sooo much (:
And she say: 'This is the second time in the week that I see my friend cry at bus stops'
Yea, I teared abit luh. Cause I kinda feel some pain in my heart regarding those emotional issues.
So yah, as I talked, I can't control myself.
-----------------------------
Cause you are MY friend. And I really want to help you.
Even though maybe you don't know or choose not to know,
actually it really hurts sometimes that I'm not recieving any thankyou(s) for the things I have done for you.
But I know I'm the one initiating help in the first place.
Hence, I will never ask for any thankyou(s) from you.
Doesn't matters if all my efforts gone down the drain,
so long as you do this last part of the race well.
Put in all your heart to do. You can make it.
Whatever I have done for you, friend,
its from the bottom of my heart.
I want you to pass your O'levels well.
Please! Pass it well. I know I won't make a great impact on you.
But at least, please don't give up! For any one in your heart.
And also, please know that I will still be here for you too.
If you ever need any help.
As I'm typing this, my hands are feeling really cold.
And I feel tears rolling in my eyes.
I don't know if you will ever know,
but I just wanna tell you, no matter what happens,
I will still help you. As long as I can, I will.
Cause I say one more time, you are MY friend!
Someone I won't give up helping till the end.
And hopefully to become a kind friend to you.
So here, good luck to you. (:
And thanks for all your accompany all this while.
Bearing with all my nonsences and all everyday.
For the time you have tried to cheer me up, and made me laughed so hard,
Thankyou.
I know I'm nothing. But still, thankyou, my friend!
To be true, theres no one that cheers me up like you do.
Get so entertained by what you said, laughing at the way you sings, and all,
really so funny!
I will be missing all your entertainments soon. ):
But, all your efforts are really appreciated.
So much thankyou to say actually.
Thankyouuuuuu (x1000) :D
Don't feel bad after reading, cause thats all I wanna say to you.
-----------------------------
Anw,
the sky was dark alr by then. Hah.
So I called home and tell Mum that there was a traffic jam.
B&A*D% &*$% ##
And I have to cross that dark dark bridge myself.
Hoho, but I'm not scared! -_-
I'm super full.

Hmmm, going off now.
Not in the mood alr.
Everything's making me feel so frustrated.
Goodbye and study hard everyone.
Happy weekends too!
Any where good to study o.O?
Somewhere noisier than library but quieter than Mac that kinda place. :X
In doubt now! Argh.

2007-10-04T16:32:00.000-07:00

Mid-year L1R4: 24
Prelims L1R4: 21

Where the hell can I get with this kind of results?
Everything is making me all so tired now.
Studies and emotional issues.
I'm getting so stressed out. Though I don't appear so ):
Oh mann, I'm so out of the mood now.
Wish I can bang my head against the wall and just die and no O'levels.
But yea, thats wish only.
In the end, I still got to face the bloody fact.
The fact that school is in a mess,
teachers not teaching,
and lastly,
its only two freaking weeks away from O's!

As day passes by, we are all each day nearer to O's.
Getting more and more stressed up.
Whats with all the teachers?
Hmm, and whats with the school's management as well?
Everything is like ....
Letting an inexperience teacher taking a graduating class?
How unlucky can we get.
Please la, so pathetic?
Arghhh, I need to vent out all my anger la!
Really really wanna skip school.
So irritated can!
I wish I can just grab her face, punch her face and let her drop.
I wish to burn the school down as well and then, no more school!
Isn't this perfect? -_-
Going to school now is super frustrating. Seriously.
I'm not saying all teachers are like that but at least some really are!
I'm not worried if anyone sees this and get unhappy about it.
Its just a waste of your time.
Hello, this is my blog
and I have all the right to voice out my opinions towards whats happening in my life.
Do some self reflection first before you come and find me out and ask me why I say these and that.
I'm just stating the fact.
Shut up and go.

Anw, school is usual again.
Went at 7.45am. Slack at Mama awhile with the rest.
Lol, saw Roland? Well, see him everytime.
He called my name again -_-
Hmm, can't remember when I was in the same class as him.
I think really many many many years back alr. Like P1/2?
Haha, was surprised that he actually remembered my name.
But I didn't forget his name as well too. (:
Anw, lessons was super duper ...... >:(
Physics, English, Chinese and Maths.
Super boring, frustating and irritated .
Nearly went out of school just now.
Lol, but I was super high during Chinese
and I started moving myself around in the wheelchair and went 'pipipopo' -_-
Everyone was irritated and Mdm Khoo was shocked too.
Haha. She said I was under stress and got no where to vent out and thats why.
Haha, maybe? (T-T)
Then after that, my mood dropped to zero again. Zzzz.
Terrible moodswings I'm having. Oh my god.
I'm weird, I'm a monster.
I laugh when I'm happy and cry when I'm feeling sad.
Isn't that suppose to be the way o.O?
Hmm, Sike passed me the Nobuta show :D
Thanks thanks.
Aishhh, so tempted to watch it luh!
But still, no matter what, I will still need to wait until Sunday!
Gosh, whats life now? No TV, no comp, only books! ):

Erggggz, whatever la.
I'm going to sleep now!
So oh my god tired. ):
My wish now: Get me back my life!
Haish, gotcha go. Byes.

Yeah and I got drumstick rice :D

And the room feels so empty,
where my pictures used to be.
And I can't say that I blame you,
But you can't blame me.
'Cause nothing's worth losing.
Especially the chance to make it right.

2007-10-03T16:06:00.000-07:00

A song that reminds me of you.

If I lay here.

If I just lay here.

Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

2007-10-03T15:51:00.000-07:00

Oh my god, from my msn contacts,
I can sense that everyone is really working very hard.
Cause I see no one online.
Oh my oh my, okay.

I'm super sleepy.
Hence, will be going off real soon.
Classroom in chaos these few days -_-
Don't feel like going school and wasting my time.
Sigh, shitty shits! Zzzz.
Yeah yeah, Sike gonna lent me his VCD :D
Hurrayyy. Haha.

Hmm, goodybye la.
Feel so guilty for using comp ):
Oh yah before I forgot,
thanks Ana for the note on her blog.
Am touched. (:

2007-10-01T16:27:00.000-07:00

I miss you, Grandpa! ):
Its been 9 years.
Do you still remember us?
And miss us?
Like how we are missing you here, on earth.
Ytd, I cried.
Cause I suddenly remembered you.
Remembering how far apart we are.
The way you smile,
the way you always protect us from scoldings,
the way you walk,
the way you always buy things for us.
Thinking of that, even though its been long,
your face still lingers in my mind.

Tears rolled down to the fact that I can never feel the warmth in your hands,
never meeting the eyes that are always filled with love,
for not having enough memories with you.
But Grandpa, if thats all I'm left with,
I'm really contented.
Thank you for everything you have done for us! (:

Grandpa, if only you are still here with us....
I really really miss you.
Feel like hugging you. And feeling your warmth again.
Love you always!

2007-10-01T15:52:00.000-07:00

God damn it, I can't see my tagboard!
And what the fuck wrong with Friendster?! -_-

First, Happy Birthday to myself! :D
Shall now sing myself a birthday song:

Happy birthday to me,
Happy birthday to me,
Happy birthday to JinMay~,
Happy birthday to me!

Hah, that sounds so pathetic.
Doesn't matter luh.
At least I don't forget my birthday.
Lol.
I'm a year older now.
Grow up okay!
May all my wishes come true and score well for O'levels. {:

Anw, thanks everyone for the wishes.
Really grateful.
Though not really lots of presents but yea, I'm happy enough for what I have.
Bid goodbye to 15, its sweet 16 now! Gaga.
Thanks Bel for the present.
And I also really wanna thanks Khair for the card.
Its really very touching and thoughts-ful of you to make that card! {:
Though it look like ... primary school standard of drawings and colourings.
I can understand you see. Cause you are taking F&N. Hahah!
But seriously, when I read what you wrote, tears are rolling in my eyes )*:
Especially the part: '... This might be the last year we're classmates, and that sucks!)= You have spent sixteen years in the world. You have shared with me four years of it with your lameness and I never regret every moment. Thank you May!(='
Really so nice uh! Haha. Thanks alot too (:
I see your efforts through the coloring and all. I really see efforts! Really!

Well, presents ain't really important though.
Its efforts and heart that counts.
So yah, hope Cbel like the card I made her too. {:

Anw, got back Prelim papers.
POA, F&N, Maths and SS.
Gosh, it was '-_-'
Suddenly I realised that I have no way to go.
Or rather, I can't get anywhere with this kinda results.
Felt so helpless.
But there were improvements though.
At least, I got a 6 for POA instead of 9 -_-
Urgh, needa mug hard luh!
but, I'm really sleepy now ):

Argh, better not waste time and faster go bathe and sleep.
Then, study again! ):
I'm looking real forward for the long holiday.
Oh my god. I know it will be here soon.
But I still need to get my O'levels well first!

Alright, stopping here.
Goodybyes {:

2007-09-30T16:17:00.000-07:00

Yea, everything is done now! {:
Alrights, I'm getting my butt off this chair.
And get myself into some books and papers.
Wooh, I love books -_-
Lol.
Love. Goodybye.

2007-09-30T14:13:00.000-07:00

Tagboard is finally up!
Tag me, tag me. Thanks {:

Anw,
recallingggg... recalling...

Friday:
Last paper (Science MCQ).
Went Far East with XiangYu.
Long walks, long bus rides.
Bought Clarabel's present. {:
Went home, slept, watch TV until 1.30am.

Saturday:
Went Bugis and Orchard with Mum.
Bought XT2 jeans and Everlast shoes {:
Yeah yeah yeah, happy happy! Hah.
Went out for dinner and then to buy luggage.
Leg pain acting up. Couldn't get to sleep ):

Yes, two days.
I'm happy {:
Anw, I'm alone today.
No disturbance. Muahahah.
Its time to start my mugging again tmr!
Yes, I can do it {:
Way to gooooooooo ~
Lalalalaaaaa.
Oh yah, the book JiaMin lent me that day was nice.
Inside it, these a few stories that are very touching.
The conclusion for every stories are very sweet!
I wanna share some of it:
--------------------
不久以前，再一次故事中受伤的左手的伤口开始变得越来越明显，
我一直搞不懂小时候的伤口为什么会变得如此明显，
但我很快认识到，其实，那些眼睛看不到的伤口才是就深就痛的。
几乎每个人都或多或少地背负着这种眼睛看不到的伤口生活在这个世界的，
所以那些可以用眼睛看到的伤口会因为能被别人看到和理解而变成一种幸运。
而那些别人看不到的伤口也许因为永远不能被别人看到和理解而变得更深更通。
那些眼睛可以看到的伤口也许只是为了提醒我们不要忘记隐藏在心灵深处的那些伤痛。
--------------------
思念莫人，
就是把那个人小心翼翼地放进心里.
想念让我变得麻木,
因为那个人现在不在我身边.
虽然那时的我总是躲在大树后面默默的注视着他，
但是我已经很满足了。
我满足于深埋在心底的那种思念,
也爱上了那种因为想念而出现的麻木.
--------------------
我终于明白了,
真正的爱不是因为获得而兴奋, 而是付出而开心.
Finally I understand, true love.
Its not that you are happy of what you are recieving.
But because of what you are contributing.
--------------------

I think they are really nice stuff. So sweet.
Sorry because they are all in chinese.
But take your time to read, its really meaningful {:
There are more to it. But I'm lazy to type out those chinese characters.
Hah.
Oh my, I'm addicted to the song, '苦茶'
By 棒棒堂&黑社会美眉.
So nice so niceeeee {:
Oh well, I'm going back to my show now.
Gosh, I still have alot of things not done yet. ):
Sweeping, packing my table, ironing school uniform and washing clothes.
Oh mannnnn (T-T)
Hmmmm, gonna get it done before evening.
Byeeeeeesx.
I love Verdana. Its super nice I think. LOL -_-

Oh yah,
its my birthday tmr! :D
Yeahhhhh, its finally here.
Lalolehloooooooo ~

2007-09-27T17:03:00.000-07:00

Kinda bored now.
Shall start studying later. {:
Yes, last paper tmr! Haha.
I'm lazy to blog. But out of boredom, yah lo.
No choice, I'm really getting so lazy.
Anyway, got a 1hour paper this morning. (POA MCQ)
Was an easy paper. :D
But I'm not really confident. T-T
Went to JiaMin house after that.
Studied awhile, watched TV all the way.
For like 2hours only la. D:(oh no, don't give that face!)
Haha, then went home around 11plus.
Oh my god, her maid got black face. -_-
Hahahaha.

Suddenly having lots of feelings overcoming me.
But I'm not feeling emo. Hah.
Just accepting more of life.
To who you met in your life, everything is destined from the start.
I'm really feeling glad to have find wonderful friends around me.
Its rare to find a bestfriend who makes you feel like a family member

But here, I wanna thanks JiaMin especially.
Because she is my bestfriend.
And,
for understanding me.
For knowing me like inside out.
For always helping me with my work.
For always hearing me out.
For bearing with all my nonsence.
For crapping along with me. Haha!
For everything, I'm really thankful! {:
Honestly, you make me feel like family.
To have you as my friend, my best friend.
I'm proud to say, this is only the start of our friendship.
The years will pass,
time will go,
old memories will fade away,
but our friendship will still be here.
Yes, I promise. {:
友谊万岁！

Hoho.
Before I go,
heres a video for people to enjoy!
Enjoy if you find it enjoyable. Lol.

4E5 Teachers' Day performance.
What you see isn't really important.
Listen to the song and feel our sincerity! {:

Goodbye.

2007-09-26T13:08:00.000-07:00

Maths1 was way harder than Maths2 (T-T)
I will cry myself a river. Hah. ):
The hall is stuffy like don't know what shit.
Everyone perspiring luh.
Whats wrong with the school? -.-
Install an aircon la please.
Stop wasting money on other things.
See into what pupils really need!
As in more for the majority.
Installing an aircon will be a great idea.
So the lower sec people sitting at the gallery won't be perspiring every assembly.
And, the Sec4 and 5 pupils taking their prelims and O'level won't be persiping too!
We can't focus la! For god's sake -.-

Got so pissed today with the fan thing.
She just can't be bothered to try and just tell me that she can't do anything.
What the? I'm irritated hor >:(
Alright, enough of this, its spoiling my mood. Zzzz!
Anyway, two more papers to go and yeah, its the end of prelims :D
At least, for prelims luh.
Its like taking a long time for prelims to be over.
Thinking and thinking, its been 2 weeks since we entered class.
Hmm, missed the dustiness. LOL!

Block timetable will be starting next week.
Straight 1-hour lessons :/
Gonna be torturing but good :D
At least can learn sth. Hopefully.
Mr Raj got big and round eyes.(I guarantee)
Haha. Yesterday's F&N paper was such a bore lo.
I started laughing to myself.
Cause I saw a teacher dozing off in front of the hall.
Haha, he was trying really hard to stay awake.
Then I saw Mr Raj staring into the blank air.
Oh my god, big and white eyes! Hahahaha.
Entertaining :D
Haha, I kept laughing to myself lah.
Hmm, sounding so 'metally ill'! -.-
But actually, if you look around you,
you will realise that there are many funny things happening every second.
Maybe not yours, but for me, yeah everything is funny.
Opps, very random here -.-
Then went studying with Jasmine and Ziyi.
Lol, we fooled JiaYing.
Hahaha, we were laughing away and coming up with ideas how to trick her.
And the story goes on and on.
LOL.
Finally, thanks Jasmine for accompanying me home these few days!
Hope I have entertained you. {;

I'm tired now.
I wanna sleep.
But I must wait. And wait and wait.
For my brother to be back.
Theres still like another 40 more mins before he is coming back ):
Faster have lunch, faster 2 hours later, faster bath,
so I can faster sleep!

Oh yah, heard that the Prom night theme will be what 'Bling bling'?
Lol. Then I remembered Jeban's shiny boxers! He said that its bling bling that time.
So I was like telling Fiona,
'Eh I think Jeban can just wear his boxer and go.'
Hahaha!

Lastly, lastly, lastly.

Happy Birthday to:
Boon and ZiJing! [:

2007-09-24T00:22:00.000-07:00

Prelim sucks.
Really so bad sia ):
Today, screwed up my Chemistry again I think.
What a bad news. Feel so stressed.
Its supposed to be an easy paper but...
I seriously don't know whats the matter with me -_-!
Argh, really really gonna work hard for O's.
Oh my freaking god!
3 more weeks after prelims and thats it,
O'LEVEL! (T_T)

Serious need to switch back to O'level mood quick.
Straight after prelims ):
Agh, no time no timeeeeeeeee alr!
Tmr is F&N. Hope it will be alright. (:
But, its a 2 hour paper la. So long -_-!
Sure gonna be dead boring! ):

I wanna watch shows lah.
Oh my god, spare me some time.
I'm wasting alittle time now.
Watching and watching since just now.
Will be back to books later.
Sorry, please pardon me alright! ):
Just awhile more will do. (:
Haven't really started on Nobuta,
but its nice I think. Saw the first few epi alr! :D
Cool, really nice stuff (:
Especially when Kame is inside :D
WoooooWaaaa! Haha, excited. LOL!

Proposal Daisakusen,
Nobuta Wo Produce.
黑糖玛奇朵，
公主小妹.

I wanna watch 天涯侠医 too la!
Soooo nice. But have to wait for the weekends. ):
TVs and TVs -_-
Why are there so many nice shows on.
Oh my god, especially when O'level is like so near! (x_x)
真无奈啦！

2007-09-22T21:43:00.000-07:00

I didn't online for yesterday?

Yah, I guess so.
Mum plucked off the computer plug -_-
Thanks to Bro uh! (Oh my god)

Okay, I don't feel like studying today.
When out for the whole day can!
Went to Eastpoint cause Mum wanted to shop for the winterwear.
Then trained to Tampines.
Walked around. Bought my pants and mooncakes.
Waaaaa, Mooncake Festival is here soon (:
Wooh, suddenly missed all those carry-lanterns days.
Ahah. Really so fun to play with candles and cousins :D
But now, no more alr la! Sobs.

I think I really need to study real hard tmr alr.
Gosh, can't waste time. ):
Ah, going to watch TV now(oh mann).
Boon is one very funny ghost -_-

Anw, some random-ness:

< See Boon Hui! -_-

Enough, goodybye people (:
Oh yah, Happy Birthday to Clarabel! :D

2007-09-19T20:18:00.000-07:00

Social S. : Die die die die!
Physics : Die too :/

No school tmr. So can slack alittle while. :/
Heh. But going back to books again soon. ):
Sobs, double sadness.
Tata, away for dinner.
Byessssss.

Please move on after crying.

2007-09-18T14:49:00.000-07:00

Okay, I'm back. From school.
Not really very happy though.
First offical paper today :/
Last Thursday was EL P1.

First is Geog then later on, Maths2.
Was so stressed up! ):
Especially for Maths2.
Gosh, like damn engrossed in the paper luh everyone.
So quiet even after collecting the papers. Lol.
Not enough time though. For both papers.
Geog, I only wrote one paragraph for a 12 marks question! Damn it. -_-
Maths, skipped cause don't know how to do and in the end, no time to go back and think. Damn it too -_-
Have our papers in the hall.
And it brought be to think back 2years ago.
We have our papers there too.
For mid-year or end-year. Forgotten.
Hello, time really flies -__-
I'm like sitting for my prelims now.
And leaving the school in another 2 months plus?
Sighs, wonder if its a relief or what.
But I think I will miss everyone badly. )*:

Walked home with Jasmine just now.
Talking about Olevels and all.
Thn she told me about NAFA(Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts).
I think I might consider going there. :D
There offers Diploma in Visual Communication too!
Yes, thats what I want.
So if the Visual Com in TP does not have any space for me,
I will go there.
Provided that my parents agree to it too.
Hope they do. (:
I just need to get into that stupid Visual Com.
If not, I think I might just lost interest in studying. Hah.
Cause theres no other course that catches my eyes till now.
So yeah.

Well, tmr got another two more tough papers to go!
Gonna go study after this. (Physics and Social Studies)
Can MOE just remove Social Studies from our subjs.
Or put it as a selective choice.
I bet no one will enter that particular class with SS in -_-
Ps luh, but its irritating and stupid.
And its gonna pull down my humans grade >:/
Now, I don't even have the slightest idea what to study!
Gosh, whats this? Okay, its hell hor ):
Aghhhhh, Science science science. Screw science too :/
But overall, Science is still so(x100) much better than Social S.
Be glad that I said that. Cause I used to hate Science alot alot too.
But not now :D
Who knows, maybe I'm falling for books and studying?
Lol, god knows.
Alright, stopping here.
Goodybyesss.

I think I have lesser time with my classmates now.
We will drift, until the last day of O'levels.
So here I am,
trying my best to get along well with everybody and cherishing the time we are left with.
Sad to say, we are fated to go seperate ways.
But I'm still so happy to have met everyone. (:
For adding colours into my daily school life.
Thanks alot!

2007-09-17T10:10:00.000-07:00

Hmm, I'm like still so crazy over that Jap guy below :D
Wawaaa Weeeewee!
Damn Sike la, intro me what show.
Resulting me in such obsession -_-
But its okay, cause the show(Tatta Hitotsu no Koi) is really nice! (:

Anyway, I'm here at school again.
The usual com lab.
Thinking back to last week.
When Hong pranked that relief teacher!
Lol. Was super duper funny. :D

Okay, I'm bored bored bored.
Need to study luh!
Prelims starting tmr ):
Lol, I'm laughing away. Gagaga!
Just now in the morning, while helping Xy in finding her Maths textbk and mapreading.
I was sitting at the teacher's table.
Then, suddenly something crawled over the table.
Its a small lizard -_-
We screamed as of theres no yesterday. Haha.
Hah, have the shock of my life. LOL!

I'm going. For recess.
Byes!

2007-09-16T16:47:00.000-07:00

Kamenashi Kazuya! :D

Tatta Hitotsu no Koi <3

2007-09-15T21:47:00.000-07:00

Just got back from dinner.
I'm not allowed to use computer.
But since Mum is on the phone, here I am to update.

Dinner at East Coast just now.
Walked along the same path, suddenly thought back the times.
The ton over we had half a year ago. During March holidays.
Though its stupid to ton over without a proper shelter,
but it was really fun!
Sighs, really missed every single moment of it.
We cycled through the night, we talked ghost stories until 3(devil hour).
We talked and sleep under the only stupid shelter next to us.
We got aches here and there. We were dirty.
But no one cares, cause its fun cause we are together.
Lol, fun fun fun and fun la! :D
Can we have one by the end of this year? ):
Yay! WeiLiang say one big big chalet :D
Gooody :D

Okay, my eyes are watery now.
For not reason. As in the tears are in my eyes for not reason-_-
I'm not crying. Lol.
Got a shock XiaoJing talked to me!
Okay, it was a prank by Ow Chee Jing(Chin)!
That asshole >:{
Alright, I'm going off.
Goodbyes.

When new memories add on to the old ones,
will we be forgotten?
I hope time can freeze, at this moment of time.
Cause only then, we can be friends forever.

2007-09-12T19:20:00.000-07:00

Don't take too long to say
I love you to the ones you love
Cause time has a habit of slipping away

And out on a clear blue sky
When lightning strikes on a sunny day
Just take me in and keep me from the rain

And the words that seem so hard so say
Come out when you've gone away
Just stay a little while and hear me say

That I want you here tonight
And I need you by my side
For just one more moment
For just one more moment with you

Turn away to say goodbye
With each and every word that passes by
Like a distant memory

And time keeps slipping away
And time will turn to grey
And time will be the one who holds you down
Sometimes time will treat you bad
Before you even know what's wrong
And in the end it hits you hard
Please tell me you'll be strong

"One More Moment" by Ronin.

2007-09-12T19:12:00.000-07:00

Hmm, quite some days since I blogged.
Actually, I feel guilty when I blog.
Cause I'm taking up the time for my revision.
But nevermind, after this I will dive straight into books. :D

Everyone are like super busy these few days.
Esp the artist(s). LOL!
Its like rush rush rush now.
Sigh, its like everyone are drifting further and further apart frm each other.
Cause people start absenting themselves frm school, no time to talk and eat together anymore.
Everyone just rushing here and there.
Hmmm, how should I say this...
Forget it -.-

For me, I just need to study real hard for my studies.
So these few days for me, study study and study.
I got plenty of things to catch up lah! ):
Sobs, don't know if I will be able to make it.
But whatever it is, I will try my best. :D
If really can't, then I got nothing to say anymore. Sighs.
Monday, I didn't went out to study.
At first wanted to go night study.
But people don't wanna go.
And everyone sleeping away. Hah.
So just studied at home.
Right? Oh yah, correct.
Lessons for Monday was like .... o.O.
Only have POA lessons(2) and Chinese(1)
What the hell sia? Teachers pon schools too?
LOL!

Only went out to study yesterday with people(s).
At Petal Mac. Until 8+
Then went home with Hadi.
Its super duper cold hor pleaseee.
So people, if you wanna go study at Petal Mac one fine night,
bring some jacket, sweater or blankets along. Serious.
Or you will freeze yourself to death. -_-!

And today,
supposed to go there too.
But for some reasons, I didn't go.
The malays are having prayers tonight?
Cause their fasting month starts tmr.
So they won't be able to make it.
I was sleeping and only woke up at 6.30! ):
Jeban said he CANNOT make it today. -______-!
Eh, whose the one who ask me first. -______-!
So fine fine fine, don't go too.
Study by myself then lo.

Okay, so I'm gonna study now.
The more I blog, the more I feel guilty.
EL Paper 1 tmr ):
Sobs, I still don't know the format for formal letter writing!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~
Pray hard that what comes out tmr will be something like,
Report? Proposal?
Prelims start next Tuesday!
Damn, can't believe it luh.
Gosh, this is hell.
I shall get cracking then! (zzzzz)

Byesssssssssssss.
Take care and Good luck to all!

I feel the floor shaking! T.T

2007-09-07T17:29:00.000-07:00

Sorry, I'm not perfect.

Will you still wanna be my friend?

2007-09-07T16:38:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 11 AM.
Now is 4.09 PM.

After working on my Maths since morning, I think I shall take a little break first.
And back to it again later. ):
I think that I have not done enough this September holiday.
Okay, I'm feeling guilty.
And.
Its a boring day at home.

Nothing particular here.
Just, once again,
Happy Birthday to Bro.
Okay, we sang 'Happy Birthday' song ytd midnight. -_-
Very pathetic cannnn! Oh my god.
But funny though. Hah.

Zzzzz, I'm super bored now.
Started editing photo.
Wooh.
I think I'm starting to lose interest in everything I do.
JinMay, please get a lifeeeeeeee! :/

Alright, tmr is Saturday alr :D
At least, its time to get away from here uh.
Faster faster faster come! LaLoLeh. :D, :D, :D
I want ton over. Hohohoh. I want watch shows.
Suddenly, missed those good old days.
The days without worries. Only smiles and laughters.
I want a time machine to get back to then. ):

To the little things you have done,
it does make a difference.
It brighten up her day,
it makes her smile like she has never did before. (:

2007-09-06T21:27:00.000-07:00

Thursday is here.
Two more days to Saturday! :D
Three more days to School opening! ):, ):, ):

Anyway, went studying today again.
With a even weird combination.
LOL!
Bob, Khairul, Shu, Khairul's bassist & guitarist, Fiona(later on), Me.
Weird weird weird?
Yes, I think it is -_-
but nevermind, I still can study. :D
Today, the Mac's manager seems alittle nicer.
Cause the volume of the Hi-Five advertisement is softer by alot.
Alot alot hor! Gaga, but after awhile, it went up again lah.
But still, wasn't as loud as ytd's.
After the noon, that pathetic Mac became like a study corner eh?
Damn lot of people studying can.
People studying > People eating.

I reached there at 11.15+ with a little swollen eyes.
Due to the show ytd night -_-
Was late already.
But, I only saw Khairul there.
Sitting there like a ....
OLD MAN! Hahahaha.
How pathetic. He is always the early one.
Cause, he stays nearby! No wonder. Lol.
Hah, and Bob!
That guy uh, keep saying that he is on his way since morning.
But only arrived at like 1+? -_-
Shu and Bob can make good friends.
Cause they arrived at around the same time.
Lol!
Studied and talked at the same time.
And I think I found myself very happy.
Agh, I don't know what have I absorbed today ):
But I think I sure have absorbed something. :D
Went home at around 4+ near 5.
Thanks to Shu, I get free cab ride home! LaLoLehhhh~
Thanks thanks thankssss ~

Actually, I got many things to write down luh!
But I lost mood for writing all of a sudden.
I mean, for typing.
But thats all for today.
Someday, I will come back and do emo typing again! :D
Going to watch my show alr.
Alright, byesssx and take care everybody.

Oh yah, Brother's birthday tmr.
Happy Birthday to him lo.
I love family, family love me too. -_-
Nah, thats only a lie.
And a fact that hurts.
But I will still try my best to love them. (:

To you,
its a small thing you have done.
Doesn't matter alot.
But maybe to others,
its the big thing.
It does make a difference.
If only I can see you again,
I will wanna say, 'Thankyou'

2007-09-05T23:56:00.000-07:00

I'm here like an idiot once again!
Hah, while waiting for the show(1 Litre Of Tears) to finish loading,
I shall get myself in here first :D
Before moving on, I would like to say,
That show is really really sad.
From its title, you should be able to know uh?
Its based on a real life story. Which makes it even more sad can! ):
I can't stop crying.
But one thing best about the show is ...
The guy is damnnn handsome when he smiles! :D
But guys, don't be sad.
Cause the girl is super cute too! Hah.

Anyway, today is a whole day out.
But not really tired though :/
First, went to study with people.
Weird combination of us.
Hah. Shu, Khair, Jeban, Bob and Me. -.-
Doesn't matter. We studied POA.
Thn after that, went to meet JiaMin.
Went Tampines to get the POA books.
For Bob and Shu as well. :D
Studied at some void deck and went home after.
Saw Kian Chong.
He just popped out from no where. Hah.
Went home, but not one was at home.
Walked over to aunty house.
For some dinner -.-
Only came home at 10+

LaLoLeh, I'm lazy to blog alr.
I'm bursting into tears soon.
So, byes for now! Sobsss )*:

2007-09-04T10:42:00.000-07:00

Agh! I'm getting irritated with hotmail.
I can't attach the pictures!
Whats the bloody problem sia ):

So Mujahid, if you see this post before tmr comes,
I'm telling you sth.
And that is ...

I have decided not to send you any pictures through mail!
Dont blame me.
Cause its my computer that refuses to do so -.-
I'm sorry for my noob-ness.
I just can't help it. I mean, my computer-.-
And thats not my excuse hor! Damn you.
Thanks and sorry for the inconvience brought!
Haha :D

I'm going to sleep!
Mujahid, please be honoured alright!
I online esp. to attach those stupid pictures for you.
But sadly, can't help it luh ):
Send to you other days lah hor.
I need to wake up early tmr! Oh my haha.
Goodnight to all.
Goodnight to Muthu too! Hah.

2007-09-03T00:51:00.000-07:00

I think this is lame. But because JiaMin tagged me.
I should be honoured yea? Hah. Alright, I will do it (:

Rules of the game :
1) Each player of this game starts off by giving 5 weird things about themselves.
2) People who get tagged need to write in their blog of their own weird things as well and state the rules clearly .
3) In the end , you'll select 5 people to tagged and list their names .

Weird things I do>
Someone said:
'Nothing, you just weird'
'You laugh weirdly.'
'Look weirdly'
'Everything weirdly'
So, I think I'm weird enough not to explain how weird I am.
Cause I'm weird from top to bottom.
If I really were to list out, it will take me a day to write.
And take you another day to finish reading.
So, drop this uh :D

5 people I wanna tag>
1) Anabel
hmm, I realised that I got no friends eh.
2) Friend 2
3) Friend 3
4) Friend 4
5) Friend 5

How pathetic can I get? ):
Nevermind, I'm still fine on my own. :D
Suddenly, I don't see the purpose of doing this 'quiz?' leh.
Hah, its to kill time. Since I can't sleep now -.-

2007-09-03T00:23:00.000-07:00

Hmm, well, hoho, heh!
Bored stiff today.
Supposed to study geog but I dozed off two times.
Firstly, it was in the afternoon.
I started studying after putting my online status as 'Away'.
And reason why, because I have got a date with my books.
Hah, what a pretty excuseeeee :D
But guess what, I dozed off after like what?
30 mins? Sadly -.-
From 1+ until 3+.
Then 3+, I intended to study too.
But sadly, the TV set in my living room managed to distract me.
So I on it. And guess what?
I sat there and watch. All the way till 6!
Oh my goddddd.
Then until 6+, 7, I decided to study alittle.
Sadly this time, I dozed off within 5mins!
Lol, until 8, I went to the TV set again ):
And all the way until 10, computer!
I feel so sorry for myself.
For wasting so much time.
I feel like a pig all of a sudden. Sobs!

Okay, tmr shall be the start! :D
Wahaha, but ....
Agh, not matter what, just try.
I can't stop trying.
I mean, I'm not supposed to luh huh.
And.
I need to get prelim papers! Gagaga.
Any kind soul wanna help me? ):
Since Khair said 'aku tak ada duit'
Meaning, I have no money.
How sad. Nevermind, at the most I don't buy.
Thats the worst the situation can get.
I'm lazy to get lah. I'm a lazy pig -.-
Hmmm, its a lazy day today.
And I think I'm stopping here already.

Well, I'm looking forward to Saturday! :D
Late night up again with Jooyee. Waaag, loves.
Hahaha. But after Saturday and Sunday,
school reopens and prelims are here alr ):
Thats nothing to be happy about actually.
But still, I'm really looking forward to it. :D

Nights to all!

2007-08-31T18:35:00.000-07:00

Group photos:

Hey, we are not racists!
Malays and Chinese can get along very well :D
Nice smile on Muthu! Hah.

----------

Taken during CIP hour yesterday.
Everyone were doing something.
No one was lazing/slacking around! (:
So great can. See, its our crazy teamwork.
Lots of fun, lots of laughters.
No one actually complained that they are tired or what.
Really can't believeeee! :D

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With Mrs JackieChan.
Left to right: Cbel, Bobby, MrsChan, Bul and Sukrim!

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The only 6 girls in class.
We will miss MrsNg alot sia! ):

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Haha, I'm lol-ing now. -.-----------

Wooooh, the very sporting guys!
Cute people uh. Ain't they? (:

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Nepalese with MrsNg!

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Eh Hong, you are attracting too much attention.
See how many people you have distracted! Hah.

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Do not disturb!
I wanna post this because its me behind :D

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The F&Ns. Cook and eat! :D ----------

Oh my god, gayssssss? Many uh.
Lol!

----

Lastly, thisssss! :D
Note: Hong.
See what he is trying to do -_-!

Anyway, I will remember all about today (:
Thanks for everybody's effort!

2007-08-31T17:46:00.000-07:00

Hmm, when was my last post? I see.
Yups, its Tuesday.
And today is, FRIDAY!
Which also represent the last day of school.
Woooh, one week of holiday.
Urg, need to study and study and study already.
No time to waste ):
So, I reckon that its not gonna be a pleasant holiday for me.
No enjoyments, no outings. Plain books!

Anyway, very busy these few days.
For the Teachers Day Celebration today.
Well, everything went on very well.
Nearly screwed up everything yesterday night.
Oh my god, we were worried shit can!
Trying all out ways to send the presentation over.
And the stupid internet connection keep having problem.
Not mine only. The three of us. (Clarabel, Khair and Me)
Lol, nearly commited suscide! Hah.
Thanks god it went on smoothly (:
Hey, we have walk through this! Heeh.

I can't recall what happened for the past few days.
So sorry. ):
I shall just talk about today then!

Teachers Day Celebration! :D
ACES at first. Kinda lame luh.
And the instructor's face was burnt?
Its red!
Oh mann, and his expression were like FUNNY.
I kept laughing. Sorry, but I can't control.
Hmm still, the Malay teacher the most handsome! :D
Then proceed to hall for performance.
Performance were great and creative, I think.
Compared to last year, I think our batch is much more better.
More creative at presenting our thoughts.
Different types of performances too.
I think its nice.
But the hosts were like ....
Well, I loved our class performance.
Its the last and also the most touching.
Sang 'Superman' and 'How To Save A Life'
And then present a protrait of her to her.
Drawn by people like,
XiangYu, Biren and Rabin. Talented people! :D
3 cheers for them, 3 cheers for everyone!!
Its MrsNg's last day with us! ):
We specially made those slides for her.
Hope she will like it.
Wooh, and she teared! :D
She say she was touched. Yeah ~
Hah, my area there was kinda like very emotional.
We were crying like shit can )*:
Used damn lot of tissue lah! Hah.
Got quite some feedbacks about the slides.
Alot say it was touching! :D
I'm really happy.
Since all of us has went through so much trouble just to get this done.
Sense of satisfaction! (:

After that, went out with Anabel.
Yeahhhhhhhh! < see Ana see(:
We took 65 down to Bugis.
Ate at MosBurger, walked around.
And went home at 1+.
Oh my, realised that we were very stupid.
So we went Bugis just for MosBurger(s)?
Ugh Ana, realised how stupid we are? ):
Hah, doesn't matter.
Chatted alot. And feel so great (:
Thanks uh, Anabellllllll.
I will love you to bits. Alot alot alot!
No worries. Maybe we can be friends forever too? :D
But no matter what, I'll still be here for you.

Now, I got lots of photos.
I'm so happy.
All 4E5(s)! :D
Posting up some after this.
Wait uh, wait uh wait uh ...

Happy Teacher(s) Day to all teachers out there!
And especially to teachers teaching 4E5:
1) MrsNg
2) MrsRoseChen
3) Ms Shawa
4) Mr Cho
5) Mrs JackieChan
6) Ms TanCC
7) Mdm Soraya
8) Mdm Khoo
Thanks for everything and sorry for all the hardships!

2007-08-28T16:29:00.000-07:00

I know I'm accepting.
I'm contented with the way I'm having you.
No longer the heart that yearns for you.
Its the different kind of expectation you have gave me to expect.
My heart, it didn't die out.
Its learning from all the tears and pain.
And now, it no longer hurts.
At least before we go our ways, I'm still happy to see you around.
Not tears, not pain. But just, plain joy and happiness.
Thanks for being around.

And I thanks god for allowing me to know an existence of such someone.

Someone that make my day.

Someone that allows me to be happy.

2007-08-28T16:24:00.000-07:00

Today is a rainy day.
Not only is the weather, so were my heart and friends.
Crying day for us.
First it was me, then Fiona and lastly, XiangYu.

I'm tired, I'm tired. I need to have a good sleep.
Even though my Chemistry results should be able to make me happy the whole day long if I wasn't feeling down.
Today, everything seems so different.
I'm lousy. I'm feeling lousy and I'm lousy too.
Useless ass! Should be strong and yet?
So weak, so bad, so useless.
Worse still, I don't even know whats bothering me. -_-
Big girls don't cry! )*:
Whats happening to me?
I really feel like closing up my eyes and never opening it up.
Though I know, life is fragile. Its unpredictable! I should be cherishing.
But I'm really tired.
Any idea how to get away from all these miserable stuffs?
Ideas?
Tell me what to do someone? This is killing me. ):
Cheer me up if you can. Entertain me.
With your ez-link card if possible. LOL!

Thats all for today.
Kinda not in the mood.
Byesx!

Tired! x1000

2007-08-26T19:00:00.000-07:00

6.50pm : Awake from sleep!

Just woke up from sleep.
Urg, haven't iron my uniform and wash up those clothes! ):
Hmm, wondering when will they be home?
I think I still got many things not yet done.
And my 7o'clock show is starting soon!
Don't wanna miss it since I've already misssed it yesterday ):
So by right, I'm not supposed to be here right?
Arghhhhh! Whatever luh.

And yah! I found someone who liked the 7o'clock as much as I do.
Lol. As well as the dragon twin show! :D
Wooh! JiaYing the best. (:
When out studying with her yesterday at MarineParade Library.
I borrowed 3 books. -_-
But I think I won't be able to finish it again?
Alright, I will try.
Then we start talking at the foodcourt and blah blah blah.
Really enjoy the day out. Though its like ... going out for study.
Doesn't matter luh. Cause I think she is one of the few friends I won't feel pressure when I'm out with.

I feel so like crying suddenly! For no particular reason can ):
Urgh, show is starting. I'm going.
Before I go, thanks JiaMin for the book-keeping!
Love ya. <3

Everything seems even more far from reach now.
When I open up my eyes, I feel the pressure again.
Its pushing me and I'm feeling so hard.

2007-08-25T01:25:00.000-07:00

So its like what? 1:01am? Its Saturday now.
But before I climb into bed, wanna say a few things first.
Its a thoughts-ful post. My thoughts and my say.

Hey Ana, at least I know you are true.
Thanks for being a friend.
All these while. Though we were all busy with our stuffs and all.
But we still managed to keep in contact.
Though no phone calls, no long chat. Only some short gathers at school.
But doesn't matter.
Cause being visible isn't always a requirement for being friends.
It just takes some thoughtfulness and concern to keep the bond.
Please Ana, as long as my emotional state allows me to,
I will still be there to make you laugh and let you think that I'm an idiot.
I won't mind. As long as my best friend, you can be happy.
Please keep in contact with me after graduating uh! ):
I will miss you damn lot can.
With lots of love, by JinMay. (:

Many things happened.
Blame me for being selfish.
I think everyone are.
I just hope to be myself.
But its not easy.
As I see changes, I feel sorry.
For myself, for my friends.
I know I'm supposed to be contented.
And I am. No worries
I do love my friends. Every.
But I'm still thinking.
Who are the ones thats worth all your givings.
And who are the ones taking advantage of your kindness and took it without a word of thanks.
Its irritating. Seriously.
Yes, thinking and thinking.
And maybe, I shall just stop giving away for people that are only taking in?
Hmm, I'm selfish.
Ain't I?

I need to breathe too.
I need my own space.
Friends, friends, friends, friends.
I won't forget those we are nice and worth everything.
And thanks people. For being so nice to someone like me.
Thanks for all those sacrifices. Alot alot.
I will take a break and move on soon.
I need more timeeee!

I often wonders.
If something can make you think of me,
what will it be?
Hope our last goodbye won't be a misery.
Cause I really wish to let go smiling at you.
Lastly, you won't know. How much I like you before.
Goodbye, my beautiful dream.

2007-08-25T00:57:00.000-07:00

So, its Prelim Science Practical.
Lol, don't really know how to phrase the name of the exam. -_-
The anion is nitrate!
Wooh, I asked Mrs Ng just now. :D

Well, I got nothing much to say about the day.
Practical test. I think I'm happy with what I'm doing.
Went home after lunching at school with ShuZhen, XiangYu and ZhiWei.
Went out to school again for night study after sleep.
With JiaMin and her friend.
I got a boring life uh! -_-
Everyday night studies.
Hey, I'm bearing with myself alot these few days as well.
Many thinkings, many thoughts, many emotions.
And, I'm very emotional these few days!
I think I'm drifting myself further and further away from friends.
Where are friends?
What are friends afterall?
Who are the ones being true and whose not?
Urg, talk about that later.

Next friday is Teachers' Day performance?
Agh, Mrs Ng is leaving us after the holidays! ):
So sad pleaseeeeee.
All the teachers teaching the graduating classes are like leaving one after another.
Oh mann, we can't afford to go without a proper teacher.
I'm not referring to relief teachers.
They are just for shows -_- (no offence!)
But I meant, they do nothing what. Except for looking at the class.
Permanent teachers luh! Experienced one will be the best.
If not, someone who can teach.
Doesn't matter if he/she isn't qualified.
Hah!
Or is it possible to make those leaving and experienced teachers stay?
Awww, results at risk! I'm sad and worried ):

2007-08-23T17:33:00.000-07:00

Yes! After a day of torture(no com,no net),
I'm not suffering anymore!
Wireless is back from Mum! Yeah Yeah.

Urgh, kinda tired now.
And I have this minty feel on the area near my mouth.
Damn, whats happening -_-?
I gues its the Clorets's casing. I went to smell it.
Wooh, how dumbbbb! -_-
Well, I can only say ...
I'm tired nowwwww! ):
And I'm going back for night study later on.
Meeting JiaMin at 6. :/
Another 15 mins to leaving house?
Yawns, I'm really freaking tired! ):
Damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn it.

Prelim Science Practical tmr! Zzzz.
But yeah-ness. Cause we only need to report at 9 :D
Hooray, be jealous alright (;
Hah.

Going off now! zzz
I'm really dozing off anytime soon ):

Yesterday was Kimberly Chng Ee's birthday. :D
Delication to Kaya:
Hey, be happy always uh!
Be touched to see this delication. Its specially for you. (:
Hah, Yeah.
Happy Birthday to You!
Though the delication is kinda slow. I'm not gonna let the word 'belated' make me sounds like a bad friend.
Ahah. Anyway!
Hope you like our presents :D
And the cards too.
Enjoy enjoy. Rmb, we love you always!
Kaya <3 Jam <3 Peanut Butter.
Lol, we are sooo lame! Hah, but who cares? :D

2007-08-21T20:52:00.000-07:00

Well, YiWei's camera.
Alright, we took 3 -_-
But the other one wasn't looking great.
Theres another one with Boon in there.
But, YiWei said that its corrupted ):
I'm sad. Awwww!
That one look cuter somehow luh.
Hah, we are doing WeiLiang's signature pose :D
With the tongues out like this > ;P
And we even say stick it out at which side.
Lol, its the left. As you can try to see.
WeeWeeWaaWaa.
Left to Right: XiangYu, JinMay, WeiLiang, ShuZhen
Background: 4E5 Classroom, and HongJie -___-!
Well, We definitely love 4E5'2007 Damai (:

2007-08-21T20:38:00.000-07:00

Well, skipped night study again.
And yah, I got into a heated argument with my mother because of that.
I was super angry and so is she.
Its just a small thing and she blew it up so big.
I don't know what she wants -_-
Believe me, this is the first time I shouted at her so loudly.
Damn it!
Super duper angry. Damnnnnnn.
Our relationship, hopeless I think.
No matter how hard we tried, scars still remains.
But at least, we are trying. Honestly.
I nearly cried my eyeballs out can.
I got so agitated and I shouted that I will be independent from now onwards.
And not everything about friends. Since she claims that my friends were the one making all my decisions.
Hello, I have friends all around me.
Everyone have luh. Except her lah.
Its quite obviously that sometimes, friends do affect your decision what! -_-
And yah yah yah, I shouted loud and saying out how I feel.
Damn it. I'm freaking angry.
But now, everything's okay already.
'Cause we managed to talk things out somehow?
Let everything left be how its like.
Once a cut, theres a scar that remains.
No matter how beautiful somethings may look,
you will never know how damaged it is inside.
Like my heart, like my soul, like my everything.
I say I'll be strong. I say I'll be independent.
I will try. Seriously.
Everyone will need to try. I will.
I won't give up too.
Cause I say I won't.
Imagine your family saying you useless?
Imagine your family saying they don't like your face?
Imagine your family saying that they won't be there to help if you got into trouble?
Can you ever imagine?
Well, I can.
It hurts way too much.
No words can explain.
You won't understand too.

Lonely is one word.
Sadness is another.

Sighs, its a unlucky day.
It seriously is.
I shall stop here and go.
Thanks YiWei for sending me those photos.
But I want the one with Boon on it! ):
Sadly, its corrupted. Oh gosh.
Boon ah boon ):
Post it up later on. Its edited.

Happy Birthday to Fiona See Wei Ting.
(Paiseh, can't join you at your house for dinner :/)
Happy Birthday to Idy Chua too! :D
With loves. ♥♥♥

2007-08-20T21:03:00.000-07:00

Unlucky Ass! I'm one.

2 days. Mixed up emotions and mood.
I think someone attempted to break into my house on Saturday night/Sunday morning?
Oh my god, and I only realised it on Sunday afternoon.
Hmm, nothing gone luh.
Actually, that person didn't break into my house.
But Sunday afternoon when I was about to go down for my lunch, I opened the wooden door.
And I realised that the metal gate was open.
Widely opened can -_-!
I stunned there for a hundred seconds?
I stood at the door, staring at the gate.
With this face > :O
Oh my god, I think I nearly fainted!
After recovering from the shock, I quickly rushed in,
lock up both my wooden and metal door.
Get to the phone and called dad!
Damn, I was crying away -_-
Dad got shocked and asked what happened.
I didn't dare step out of my house to get my lunch -_-
Lol, and thanks to Ben and Ow Chee Jing!
Though Ow Chee Jing, that jiaolang!
Keep suan-ing me >:/
For coming over straight away to accompany me.
And aunty's lunch too!
Thanks alot alot.
And Xy :D
You were there just nice for me too.
But its really too shocking uh!
Someone please understand the fear I'm feeling?
Until this morning, I'm still thinking about it.
What if I didn't lock the wooden door?
Goshh, I can't imagine the outcome.
Most probably I will .......
Ewww, don't know?

Anyway, I will try forgetting about it!
I'm just kinda shocked.
Not really scared though.
So today,
theres the most important event going on for me.
Its, OLevel English Oral!
I'm the last oneeeee -_-
Unlucky ass what!
[ Superman, save me ): ]
At the waiting area was a real fun :D
Me and Fiona were the only girls.
Have some fun crapping and talking to the guys.
At least, they help us kill time and lessen our worries. Aha.
And HongJie came up with very lame jokes.

He asked:
You know where our principal's office is? (Where?)
First floor! (Why?)
Cause he is MR LOH(LOW). (-_-)

How lame can he gets?

And this:
>
Whats a fool with a cap?
Ans: Foolscap (-___-!)

Rabin got his stupid idea too.
Singing to the teacher since Mrs Phee say we can do that.
As in, must be linked with the picture luh.
LOL.
But he said something that I think is very very nice luh. :D
He said: 'At least you die trying what.'
Nice oneeee! Meaning that its worth it if you die after you have tried. :D
Thn was chatting away with Hongjie and Jianji when there only the 3 of us left.
Jianji say I'm talkative -_-
Am I? (Xy, I'm asking you. Reply meeee! Am I! ):)
Last, talked to Era too.
She was the last one for her group too :D
She told me that Khair's birthday was yesterday.
And I was like, oh my god, I don't know!
Hah, but somehow, I just managed to remember to msg him just now.
I managed to remember after forgetting uh. :D

So here, Happy Belated Birthday Khair!

And the oral was like .....
I talked most of the time.
So its a good sign or what? :/
I shall take it as something good?
Alright luh, at least its better than what I've expected.
Hah.

Went home after that.
Woooh, onlined.
But no one was online!
4E5 luh. Believe it? -_-

I'm currently so addicted to the song 'Superman' okay!
I want a Superman!
Someone to be super.
Very simple. Just be super (:
Aha. I love my emo sponge too. Aha
Xy say she wanna be my Superwoman.
Lol, alrights then. I Love My Superwoman :D
(Happy happy happy? Nod if you are! Heh.)

Hoh, and now, I'm diving into my Chemistry.
Cause I got a deal on! (:
I must must must must must win that irritating S!
And I definitely will.
Oh, I'm motivating myself!
But thanks for being my motivation luh, S -_-
Muahahah >:D

2007-08-19T12:05:00.000-07:00

Woooh, my emo-ish spongebob will accompany you when I'm away! :D
Its cute. Isn't it?
Hahahahaha!

2007-08-19T11:59:00.000-07:00

Sunday morning.
Still, aloneeeeee.
Thinking of the things to be done by today.

......

One freaking more day left to O'level Oral.
I need luck and courage.
I know my heart will be in my mouth, just like Ana that day.
Lol, and I asked her to took it out then -_-
Hmm, well .... ):
Better pray hard that everything goes on smoothly tmr.

Hmm, I swept the floor alr.
Soaked my clothes for later's washing.
And now, I think I seriously need to get my table packed up.
Its damn damn damn super messy!
Like, I can't even study there.
But I think the main reason is because the table is small and that I have got too many books.
But its too messy and theres too many things that I don't even feel like clearing it up.
Or rather, where to start from! -_-

No breakfast for me cause I woke up at 10.20?
And I woke up for the sake of my TV show :D
So, I'm basically too lazy to go down and pack myself breakfast.
Hence, I have decided to go down for lunch instead.
Its only .... another 1-2h away uh.
Well, I slept at 2 last night?
Overall conclusion, its great to be alone at home overnight.
Minus all those creepy and ghostly imagination.
I love my house, I love being alone. :D

I wanna do EMaths,
I wanna do Chemistry,
I wanna do Accounts,
I wanna studyyyyyy!
But I got too stucked in my Accounts ):
Any kind soul kind enough to teach me?
Many tests next week uh! Stress (x1000)

See for yourself :
>
Monday - O'level English Oral, F&N test
Tuesday - Chemistry test (Organic Chemistry)
Thursday - Physics test (Electromagnetic Induction?)
Friday - Prelim Science Practical! ):

Feel like asking Xy over for study.
Cause she brought it up ytd.
But she says void deck and I was like ...
Kinda weird huh.
So I was thinking, theres no one at home so she can come over.
Hmm, call her and ask later. After posting.
And maybe have lunch together? Good idea uh :D
Okay, I shall call her and ask.

I'm listening to songs. Very very nice songs! :D
So addicted luh.
Firstly, its 'Superman' by 'Five For Fighting'
Kinda slow to hear it when I went jamming with Khair they all.
Its a nice song luh. And now, I'm addicted to it -_-
I think the title sounds very cool luh!
Supermannnnn ~
Sounds sooooo ... great? Hah!
Next, its 'Falling Into History' by 'Avril Lavigne'
I don't think she is the original singer or what.
Am not really very sure.
But it sure is one damn good song! :D
Saw it on ShiShi's blog and decided to download.
And ehhhh, its niceeeeeeeee!
Thumbs up (x3)
Thirdly, its '爱我别走' by 'Jay Chou'
I think this has already become our class song?
Cause everyone is singing it. -_-
The guys are, believe me!
Causing noise pollution in the class but ... haha!
Make people laugh only.
Overall, its nice luh, the meaning and all. (:
Nice song.
Then, 'Its All About You' by 'McFly'
Sooo nice and sweet song! :D
Shu say it can cheer people up.
And I agreed.
Cause it did managed to cheer me up from my emo state last night.
Its all about you.
Its all about you baby~
Hah.
Lastly, 'Damn Regret' by 'The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus'
Sent by Sike and I started listening.
Damn nice. And I'm sure you won't regret.
Haha.
Nice nice nice :D

Go listen it out people.
Got to go, I'm calling Xy.
Bubyeeeeex!

2007-08-19T01:47:00.000-07:00

Falling Into History - Avril Lavigne

It don't matter what people say I never did believe them.
I know, I know they know everything.
I'll be alright by myself and no one's gonna tell me.
I'm defined, confined by love.
Now our days seem strange.
I guess my heart was bound to change.

I fell out, out of you and me,
You're fading from view and you're falling into history.
I fell out, out of you and me,
You're fading from view and falling into history.

I never thought that I'd say that I don't really miss you.
I lived, I breathed your breath through me.
Time has a way of passing by until I don't remember.
Why or how to hurt for you.
Life's pain has gone somewhere
And I'm fine leaving it there.

I fell out, out of you and me,
You're fading from view and you're falling into history.
I fell out, out of you and me,
You're fading from view and you're falling into history.
Falling into,
falling into,
falling into history.

I fell out, out of you and me,
You're fading from view and you're falling into history.
I fell out, out of you and me,
You're fading from view and you're falling into history.
I'll be alright by myself.
And no one's gonna tell me.
I'm defined, confined by love.

2007-08-18T22:31:00.000-07:00

Here, presenting my dear partner, Jeban S! (:
Well, hope I can be cheered up by my own edits uh.
And be proud of it.
I think its super niceeee. :D
Though can't see the face and all, but still, COOL!
Heh, don't need any comment from anyone.
As long as I'm happy and I like it,
it doesn't matter if others don't like! (:

2007-08-18T22:14:00.000-07:00

I'm happily rotting at home now!
Oh my goddddddd.
I think .....
Most of my friends are all out and waiting for the fireworks?
Or fireworks were already over and they were having fun out on the streets?
Hm. Suddenly I remembered last year :D
That night the few of us went to Marina Bay to catch the fireworks and played bowling.
Reached home at 12 midnight.
It was fun luh! Time really flies.
Well, just have to say again,
Enjoy the night out those who are out! :D

Hmm.
I'm supposed to be doing my Maths revision luh.
I mean, I promised myself that as I got too stucked in my POA stuffs.
I can't balance any of the sheets -_-
Thats the result of not paying enough attention in lessons luh.
Seriously, I think its too late to catch up.
But still, I will try to catch up alittle or maybe, get the basic balance sheet done.
Or else, I'll be feeling like a F A I L U R E ):
2 years of POA and still can't balance a TPL & Balance Sheet. -_-
I won't give up so easily yet.
Thanks Jeban for inspiring me with that question.
Although you may think that you are just asking a simple and random question,
But it makes me think.
I do own thinkings, own reflection and I think,
Yes, I really do give up too easily.
I got no confidence. Though thats what I always wanted to give myself.
But everytime I tried to try, I failed. Badly.
No one understands. Actually, it hurts alot.
But now, I'm gonna try again.
To learn to be strong and not giving up that easily.
Though I know, its gonna be tough.
And its a long journey alone.
Thanks Jeban. Really alot.

Oh my god, I feeling so(x100) emo now )*:
I feel sooooo like crying!
Especially on such a day.
Cold weather, alone at home and listening to emo songs.
I'm crying.
My keyboard is wet! ):
At a time like this, I wanna thanks Marilyn.
For her msg, coming at the right time.
For letting me know that someone is still there.
For saying that she will accompany me.
For telling me to be strong.
Thanks, thanks, thanks, thanks! A million thanks.

I'm too emo to contiune.
Back to Maths and hope to divert my attention.
Goodbye people.
I'll learn to be strong.
And I'll feel better after awhile.

I thought, maybe you will really be there.
Then I realised, you never was there and will never be.
We, from different world.
Walked different paths.
Though so close, but yet still, so far.
Where are you, my dear friend?

2007-08-17T11:15:00.000-07:00

Hmm.
In school's com lab now, not doing anything.
Eee, rotting awayyyyy!
Cause I'm waiting for my coursework amendments from teacher.
Quick quick uhhhhhhh -_-

Hmm, meanwhile .......
I think that maybe I will have a little more time to blog here.
Well.
Good luck to all that are having their O'level Engish Oral today.
Hoho, mine is Monday.
So scared uh ):

Hm.
Like 5 days ago, its the start of the lunar 7th month.
Also known as, Hungry Ghost Festival.
Woooooo, o.0!
A few things not to be done.
I don't run across the road like this anymore.
I uses the TRAFFIC LIGHT for your info :D
Honestly, I'm scared.
I called up people to keep me company when I go to my house toilet -.-
Hah, believe?
I remembered Dennis Lim and called him up!
But sadly, he didn't pick up my call.
So, Bong was the pathetic victim. Haha, thanks uh :D
One night, when I was using the computer in my room.
I think I hear furniture moving on top and soon, I heard sound coming from my kitchen.
I was too scared to delay any second.
I shut my com, and go to sleep straight. Hah.
I feel so stupid! ):
Hmm, but many unlucky things did happened luh.
Like as in, the newspapers got horrible news and all.
Eeeew, scaryyy~
But still, I did attend the night studies.
With my next brave friend, Xy! :D

Anyway.
Damn YiWei. (Fiona asked me to post this!)
Suddenly, I feel like posting this too.
I'm quite unhappy that he got such a big mouth -.-
Hello, I really did faint before due to my tummyache can.
You wanna send me to the hospital if I really faint infront of you?
Whats so crazy about calling my Dad to fetch me up cause I'm having my tummyaches?
Maybe to you luh. Cause you don't know whats the feeing like to faint in a public place.
Fainting in the public is just like dying without people knowing.
You know how that feels?
I fainted before and I know.
People don't know how to help you feel better and you yourself, knowing that you are fainting, don't know how to help yourself too.
Its like ... helpless?
You know you know you know you know?!
(!@#%#*$)
Maybe you should try it one day too uh?
Thats why, to be safe, I asked me Dad to fetch me up.
And I did went to the doctor right?
I even got my medicine.
You want me to show you?
Fancy you treating it like a joke and thicks that I'm crazy.
For your info, its not funny.
And thanks for broadcasting it to people uh! -.-
Damn it.

Hah, Khair fell down just now!
Which made me laughed too much.
Lmao.
He fell and he quickly climbed up and ran away.
Hahahahaha, and the speed he pick himself up from the floor was too fast for my eyes to catch.
But still, its funny! Haha.
Me and Clarabel were like laughing all the way back to classroom.
Hohoh, Khair -.-
Please stop laughing at people. See, this is what you get!
Lmao :/

Okay, the lesson is ending.
And I'm going off now.
Come back other days.
Take careeeeeee!
Pheeeef, I'm so angry all of a sudden -.-

2007-08-15T22:30:00.000-07:00

I don't care. I must study alittle today!
At least a little before I sleep tonight.
Though I'm like ...
getting tired now ):
Nevermind.
Jiayouuuuu :D

Hm.
Just got back from night study.
With Xy, Hong Jie and Yi Wei.
Wooh, learnt quite alot! :D
Thanks Hong especially.

Quite a few things to blog.
But I think, Im left with no time.
I'm racing with timeeeee!
Give me time pleaseeee! ):
So, I'm just popping by and not neglecting my blog :D
Thanks for accompanying me along uh!
Lmao.

Will be quite/very busy luh.
Studying and tests and prelims are near.
O'level Oral, Science Prelim Practical and all.
Urghh, its killing meeeee.
I don't understand Chemistry! ):
Someone, please be my savious and save me.
Goooosh.

Bubyesssssx! ♥
I'm back to books soon :D

2007-08-13T00:01:00.000-07:00

Well, I'm tired.
I haven't packed my bag.
Nor my table -_-!
Everything is so undoneeee ~
Oh myyy.

I think Bong is a nice friend :D
I'm serious.
Despite the fact that he keeps saying himself nice and kind.
Well, I can forget about that.
Cause I think he is really nice and kind! -__-
Hmm.
He asked me to be who I am.
Yeah, maybe he is true.
I shouldn't be caring uh!
Hah, my Chemistry lab partner.
We can talk pretty well.
Too much to bullshit and cowdung!
LMAO.
Thanks x10! :D

Today.
I think its the second happiest day in my year.
Cause the first happiest thing that has already happened,
is when I managed to get to see Wu Chun in person.
Well, so this is the second lo. :D

Firstly, I scored one for my Chinese O!
its like wooooh and I can't believe my eyes.
Even until nowweeee! -_-
I'm freaking damn, super, whatever, so happy can :D
I feel the sky dropping over me.
Oh my goddddy~
And I have been keeping the happiness with me for too long that its turning mouldy.
But here come Rach, my saviour of the day!
Thanks Rach x10000!
Lol, I said that like a million times to her already.
Oh my godddd,
Its getting bored lah jinmay! -___-~
'Okay okay, lets move on then' she replied. (LOL)
Well Rach, good luck and we shall meet each other at the finishing line soon.
This race is finishing! In a real short time.
I shall meet you there uh :D
Jiayouuuuuuuuu to both!

Hm, today is Mum's birthday.
I hope the stupid A1 can be the best present for her this year. ;D
Alot of things to tell her. But I can't.
Anyway.
Just wanna say,
thanks for doing sooo much.
And sorry for the times when I didn't listened to you.
Or being so stubborn/stupid/irritating/whatever.
I'm trying my best to change. Yes, I am.
Thanks for being the greatest.
Even though you think you are not.
Really, other than thanks, still THANKS!
And something I've kept for long,
I love you, Mum ♥x1000!
I have got no courage to say it to you now.
But one day, I will say it infront of you! :D
Wait and see, I promise.
Happy Birthday, Mum ♥x1000!

I went jamming with people today!
And, I'm having too much fun with the drums :D
Heeeh, happy happy.
Went home with Xy and this unknown Malay guy from our school.
Lmao, he is weird and funny?
Hm.
I'm super duper cold now.
Freezing soon ~

Gotta go, byeeeeeees!
And paiseh hor bong, to keep you waiting.
Hahah! Take care.

2007-08-12T13:07:00.000-07:00

The happiness found in my tears,
I'm getting too used to it.
Its a kinda happiness others won't understand.
I promise I will,
bury everything away and bring us back to zero again.
Let the memories stay,
its way too beautiful to be missed.

Love is a mixed up tape.

2007-08-12T12:36:00.000-07:00

Sunday's back.
Schooling tmr againnnn! :/

Yesterday was a fun day :D
I mean for the the last part, after dinner luh.
'Cause its the first time I catch a movie with my family.
Hmmm, feeling kinda great :D
Watching movie with your parents are cool.
Esp. Night shows.
Watching movie with my parents was cool too! :D
Hahah. Esp, Night shows.
Watched 881.
Hahaha, we bought the 9.40pm tickets.
Wooh, 0.O!
We bought the tickets at like 8+
So, theres a long way to go before the show starts.
Loitered around Tampines Mall.
Time passed quite fast though.
Brother bought his shirts from S&K.
And I saw this pair of pumps?
Damn like it lah!
Awwwwww, but can't buy. ):
Q-ed up for food and went in at 9.45 :/

Was seat quite infront, but was alright luh.
The show was ....
Funny and moving.
Damn it, I cried -_-
Lots and plenty of tears rolling down that kind can!
I used up two whole piece of tissues damn it. LMAO!
Wooh, and by the time the show ended,
its already 11.30+
The shopping mall is EMPTY.
Lights are switched off.
Wooh, how cool? :D
Reached home at 12 midnight.
I'm happy and I'm happy.
Thats all, I'm happy! (*:

Today is kinda bored luh.
I think MAYBE, I will be back to my books alittle while more.
Benny and people are jio-ing me for poker games -_-
LMAO, but I don't know how to play.
And, I'm too lazy to walk over. -_-
Like damn damn lazy. Walk over just for poker games?
Hmm, I shall consider over it. :D
Oh yah, I needa watch my detective show uh!
Yeah, its nice :D
Every Saturday and Sunday, 7pm.
Watch it if you got the time.
Damn niceeeeee, I love it! :D

Ohhhhh, Chinese O'level result release tmr ):
I'm worriedddddddd! :S

Wahahah.
Suddenly realised that I wanna do alot of things can!
I wanna buy lots of new tops, new pants, new shoes, new bags, new accessories.
Oh, how I wish my life can restart again.
So I can choose everything over again.
I wanna watch movie and shows - Secret, Rush Hour3, Why Why Love, Hana Kimi 2, It Started With A Kiss 2, (Hoho) the detective show? :D
I wanna learn to play drums or at least get a idea how it should be played.
Can any kind soul please teach me? ):
I wanna relearn my guitar cause its rotting way tooo fast in my storeroom.
After Os, who can teach me? ):
I wanna go to the bleedy gym everyday.
I wanna take up any ballgame or track&field thing.
Please, spare me more time and chase the lazyworm in me away!
I wanna be healthy and fit. I don't wanna be a pig or lazybum ):
I need a change in my life. Yes. I wanna be useful, not useless!
I wanna be out-going? I wanna have lots of fun? I wanna do shoppings?
I needa get a good O'level score :D
I wanna work. I miss all my friends and working times.
I wanna get myself a new mp3/mp4/Ipod.
And I also wanna get myself a PSP damn it! ):
A laptop?
But on top of everything I have listed down,
I NEED MONEY AND WANT MORE OF IT!
So, I shall start saving up now!
Eat less, talk less, do more, work more, save moreeeeee!
I need nothing, but just ($$$)!
Without money, all of the above will be soooo out of reach. -_-

Unless, if only, if only, if only....
I have a money tree at home?
My dad won ToTo/4D(First prizeee)?

Hmm, sounds so far away from reality. :/
Well, forget about it.
I shall start saving up now!
Yes, save save saveeeeeee.
I'm planning for my future. (:
Hm now, I seems to be alittle normal.
I know what I want and what I needa do :D

Buzzing off,
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeez!
See people in school tmr (:

2007-08-09T22:51:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 42TH BIRTHDAY TO SINGAPOREEE!

This year's national day,
simple and normal.
Ug, nothing special on National Day on me.
Just that I saw the fireworks on the TV, suddenly got this touching kinda feel.
Maybe after all those complains about increase for the GST charges, electricity, water bills and what not,
I still feel proud being here.
Nevermind those taxes or whatever.
With my family and friends here, the wonderful streets with so many beautiful things to see.
Yes, I'm contented and have nothing much else to ask for anymore! (:

Anyway.
I think much of the people are out on the streets right now?
So, to all my dearest friends out on the streets,
>>
( Enjoy the night out and have fun! )

Suddenly, missed alot of people.
Have many things to say.
Shall say some now and more next time! :D
Here it goes:
>>
Those old friends, girls.
Really thanks for being friends and always being so nice to me.
Forget the many quarrels and disagreements we once used to have.
In the end, I still think you people are still the best! (:
(Jia Min, Ellene, Ana, Jia Ying, Rach, Xiao Yun(not forgetting))
♥♥♥

And, those girls who have been around me everyday. (4E5)
Yes, yes, yes, you girls are important to me.
I really admit.
From the first day we met, we totally disagreed with each other?
We disliked each other?
But left with no choice, and we tried getting along.
Now see this, we are great and fine.
Though the little cold wars inbetween, and the disagreements,
we are still back as one. Isn't it?
So, this proves that we can get along pretty well.
We are all so different.
Be it appearance, style, taste, type, size, thinkings, likes and dislikes,
we are totally different! (:
Really so rare to see a group of girls not getting influenced by each other and just still leading our own way of living.
Hah, really happy to have met you girls and thanks for adding colours to my life.
Really appreciated everything and everything done! (:
(Cbel, Mari, Shu Zhen, Xiang Yu and Fiona)
♥♥♥

To the class of 4E5.
To the everyone who has brightened up my day!
Practically, everyone luh.
So happy to be in the class.
The way we unite, the way we rebelled.
So many jokers present, this class of live!
Not getting bored in class, cause of your jokes.
And not gettting tired from laughing, cause I'm really laughing it out from the bottom of my heart.
Hah, my days never get bored cause of everyone! :D
Thanks ~
♥♥♥

Awwwwwqqqx!
I think, I'm gonna miss many and plenty of people real soon.
Sighs, with loves. [♥]

2007-08-08T13:20:00.000-07:00

Hoh, I'm off to sleep.
Byesssssssss ~
Enjoy the long holis! :D

Signing off, 1.19pm

2007-08-08T13:10:00.000-07:00

Wooh, I'm back from Cross Country.
Very early. :D
Brother is taking his nap and I'm taking mine real soon.
Damn it, I can't take it any longer. ):
So quickly after this post, go and sleep!
Theres a s.duper long holiday ahead waiting. (:

Well.
Attendance was like ...
I think its only half? :/
Theres only me, Xy and Fiona for girls. Ugh.
Assemble like normal at parade sq.
Then went to the toilet.
Boon, Joseph and Jian Ji went too long and caused us to stay back.
Thats not the worst. Cause the worst is that, we are all asked to pick up the litters at parade sq.
Lol, like what the hell ):
After finish cleaning up, went over to the reservior.
There was a huge jammmmm!
Like obviously lah can. The whole school leh -_-
And everyone is like waiting for one damn traffic light to go and stop.
Goshh, time consuming? -_-
In the end, were led over to the other traffic light.

Then everything started.
Blah blah blah.
Started according to Lower Sec(Girls), Lower Sec(Boys), Upper Sec(Girls) then, Upper Sec(Boys).
I RAN! :D
Ugh, at least I did some runnings and make me feels contented.
Didn't ran for a long time.
Couldn't remember when was the last time I went gym with Shu. -_-
Like a few months back? :/
All thanks to Ellene actually.
(Thanks Elleneeeee!, don't needa feel bad about it. :D)
Cause she asked me to run with her.
Yeah, hah.
But in the end, we went at our own pace.
She goes off first. I was lagging behind. ):
But I did jogged luh. At my own pace.
I lost connection with Xy and Fiona and hence, jogged alone.

Was the first few to reach there. For our class luh.
Then we assembled together again under a huge tree which doesn't provide any shelter. -_-
I was sweating like hell.
Then everything was sooo funny.
Just before the prize presentation, we started taking photos.
S.duper dumb! :D
At first, it was the AV boy.
He wanted to take just a candid shot.
Thn the guys stopped him and asked to take a proper one.
When he snapped, not really everyone was ready.
He was about to leave, but was called back by us again.
Lol, he looks .... (Hey, whats wrong with this group of people here.)
Damn funny expression. ;D
Then Mrs Phee came along with her camera.
They were super excited about taking photos. LOL!
Made damn lot of noise there.
So.
Took one with Mrs Ng.
Second one with Mrs Ng and Mrs Phee.
Third one with Mr Raj.
And lastly, only us! :D
Will post it up soon if we can get the pictures from Mrs Phee.
Haha, can't believe this.
We were v.v.v.v.v.v.v.v.v.s.d enthuuuuuu -_-!
I think we are the most enthu and stupid people from the crowd.
But seriously, I think we looked v.v.v cute :D
Hahaha!
Boon got 10th in position for Upper Sec Boys.
Lol, then we cheered the E5 cheer :D
We are just like making a fool out of ourselves there luh.
But honestly, soooooo fun, soooo much laughters (:
I think it will be better if the whole class is present there.
Thats the saddening thing about it all. ):
Haha, but overall, still fun lah!
So, who cares? :D

Went home after that.
Thanks Zhuo Yi and Jia Ying for accompany me halfway through. :D
I have a no-life life lah can. -_-
Others went out, I go home and rot.
Nah, I'm gonna make good use of the time!
Don't worry, Jin May (:

So now, two big things to do for the day.
1) Take a long nap
2) Studyyyyyyyy -__-

My new loved songs:
1) I Tried (Ft. Akon) - Bone Thugs N Harmony
2) Obsession - Frankie J & Baby Bash
3) I Drive Myself Crazy - N' Sync
4) Sorry, Blame It On Me - Akon

I think I said something meaningful today. I THINK, CAN?
>>
To my dear friend:
I know you won't run with me.
But I will run with you. :D

2007-08-08T00:05:00.000-07:00

When the needle struck 12 midnight,
I break my own record again.
Woohooo, 601110

Holy, this rabbit game is taking up my revision time!
But I can't stop. Stupid.
Shits. :/
Bong, stop trying, you will never break my record.
Muahahahaha.
Though its a noob score, but still.
You! No chance (x

Officially National Eve now. The Dj said.
Hoho.
Happy National Day Eve.
Cross Country in another 6-7 more hours? :/
Ewwwww~